Tuesday, 9:53 p.m.   Here it IS, all Served up with Cilantro I feel so angry for a reason unbeknownst at the current moment. Like I want to yell at someone for their stupidity but can find neither the nerve nor the articulate speaking skills to do so. I never was such a witty girl. Well, I had my moments. What really pisses me off if that I'm stupid. I ridicule others' stupidity when in fact, I'm no better than them. There is something seriously wrong with me. If I met a girl who was just like me, we wouldn't get along at all. Constantly on the loser's side. Purposely so, even. "Cheer up, kid! You can do it!" but as soon as you succeed, I'm switching sides. Why hang out with people who are better at things than me? When I do that I realise, dear God! I have no real talent! For anything! Anyway, I could just sit here and piss and moan about my loathesome personality traits, but it depresses me and I'd rather not. So yeah. I got up the nerve to ask Caleb out. I think I actually blushed. Actually my face just felt funny, I don't know if there was actually a reddening reaction. But there might have been? And his elusion of an answer would hint at "no." You want to know what happened. No that's not a question. I already know you want to know. Caleb was telling me how wednesday night was going to be weird, not having anything to do or anything for the first time in a long while. I said Wednesdays were notorious to me for being chock full of nothing. he said it would be weird for him, normal for me. I said we could go out? Switch it up, weird for me and normal for him. He said it would be extra weird for me since i would be also hanging out with a friend. And then he said wouldn't my sister get worried, that i have friends, and I said she could go to her own friend's house, and got no reply. So I said, "or not" And he "brb"ed and when he came back he spoke of the conversation's untimely death, but I didn't bother resurrecting it. I don't know if he's flirting with me or he's just cool. I don't know. I suppose I don't know what I would have done if he'd just said "okay" either. So it's all good. In the meantime, children are still starving on the streets, air and water continue to be polluted, animals continue to have their habitats cut down in favor of farmland, countless people continue to die of disease, and politics and organised religion are still corrupted. Have a nice day, all.