10:17 Sunday Night   A Missed Visit ----------------- NOTE TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN: this is a long entry (not that my entries are short but this seems really long for some reason. maybe it's the content). just as a small warning. Also if you are a boy and easily grossed out you may wanna skip over to something else. that's right. skip. ---------------- Yesterday was so cool. Hurray for spontaneous plans! So I woke up around 9:30, got online around 10 to 10:15ish after eating breakfast. Shockingly, Arina also got on! I was amazed. We were talking about stuff and then I suggested we go downtown today together. So we did! haha. awesome. We went to Alice and I dropped off a movie and rented another. On our way to Alice, we went into that Again store. It was ... interesting. there was this awesome, hot-pink, sequinny prom dress with a hot-pink, fabric, sequinny flower sewn on the side. It was so repulsive! I so wanted it. If only it wasn't $150. We went to The Warehouse to look for the "I was going to take over the world, but i was distracted by something sparkly" singlet. I would have got it but it was blue with green letters and I don't wear colour. I got a pushup bra for $8, though. :D baby's first pushup bra. Now I can be a french maid for halloween next year! (I know, I know, Katherine and I are going to be witches...but okay, I'll be a sexy slut witch!) speaking of Katherine. when I was at the Bus Exchange waiting for Arina, I saw a guy in a black "Jones Soda Co." hoodie. PLETHORA. I missed her so hardcore right then! and I really was jealous of that guy, i wanted to take his hoodie. Heh, Anyway, then Arina and I looked at shoes to see if there were any cool shoes for cheap but there weren't. We did, however, find a $2 plastic wine glass. We immediately concocted a plan! OMG DOUBLE DATE!!1!!11oneone!1 She and Kerry were going to go to the concert in Hagley park....Caleb and I were going to go...why not go together! ahaha! Arina and I decided we would buy the tacky cheap wine glasses and get strawberries, dip them in chocolate, and have Bunderberg Lemon and Lime Bitters. We went to the housewares department and couldn't find plastic wine glasses! argh! We did, however, find glass champagne glasses for $2. That was pretty awesome. Way classier. We decided to get them, instead of tacky plastic. I bought the pushup bra and the champagne glasses with the $20 Simon gave me for my birthday. Hahahaha. I just thought it was funny enough to remember. "Simon, thanks for the bra." "What?" We then went to New World and got strawberries. Then went to my house with our goodies and went and bought a chocolate block to melt for our strawberries. Then we made chocolate dipped strawberries!! yay! It took a while. I drove her home and then spent the rest of the afternoon (i.e. 40 minutes) getting ready for the concert; I even wore eyeshadow. Then had to find the mat, blankets, a bus schedule, bags to put the stuff in, and put the now-frozen strawberries in a container. I was busy! I love hanging out with Arina, she's really really funny and we just connect. Met everyone at Botanical Gardens and walked to North Hagley and tried to find a place big enough to spread the mat, blankets, etc out at. The concert was awesome. Arina and I decided our strawberries would be a surprise for the sunset. So once the sun set and they were playing one of Beethoven's symphonies, Arina and I got the champagne glasses out, and the container of strawberries. I poured the bunderberg and we had a toast to the end of summer. It was really awesome. Very romantic and whatnot. And even better than all that: There were Fireworks! good fireworks! It was great. After the concert we walked to the bus exchange and waited for our buses. Kerry and Arina left before we did. eh, oh well. Caleb and I took the 84 to my house and we hung out in my room for ages. We did make out, I'll admit. But we stopped after not too long and sat awkwardly for a few minutes. It was like a weird feeling. Where you are sort of embarrassed and sort of invigorated and you want to say something and you are sort of afraid to be the first to say something. He apparently felt the same and we then talked about it. We made more decisions. We had a good conversation about our relationship and what we like and what we need less / more of. It was really awesome. We talked about anything and everything for a while after that. He left around 2:30ish. It felt like forever, being with him, but at the same time it felt like mere seconds had ticked past. Stupid relativity. Today was the 6 month anniversary. We went to church, and had lunch at his house, and walked around his yard holding hands and hugging and wondering why we were wandering to the end of his yard. We almost napped on the trampoline. He looked soooo comfortable all curled around me with his head in my lap and listening to my stomach digest food. I told him all my worries. Because, truth told, I'm a bit worried and he's mature and can handle my worries. I didn't mention, on friday, the bit before I got called by Caleb, when I got the guts to talk to my mum. I had gone to the bathroom and realised, "hey. it's been ages since I had my last period. I wonder why that is." Jan 21, I believe. I'm not sure exactly , but it was sometime around that point. And I know I have a relatively long cycle, but at least it's regular. This has skipped a month and fast approaching another month of skipping. I told this to my mother and she asked me if there was a possibility of me being pregnant. Me. I suppose i understand the concern and i suppose they really can't read my mind and know that I do not plan to have sex at all until marriage (or at least age 25. :P). I said "No" probably too quickly. I said, "No, unless sperm can get through clothes--and two miles." eep. what if it can?!!?! She asked me if I wanted to get a doctor's appt. but I was like "is it necessary to go to a gyno just because you skipped a month on your period?" and she was like, "No, unless you're sexually active." My reply was a simple and short, "nope." And then just more talking about my regular cycle and how often it skips months. and how it will suck when i get my period again because it will be really heavy. anyway so i'm kind of worried. and I voiced these concerns to Caleb and we talked about hypothetical babies and touching flowers (certain flowers were said to have the ability to impregnate a woman in greek mythology). Then we biked to Pak 'n' Save for vanilla ice cream but it wasn't special price until tomorrow so we biked to Countdown, walked to Video EZY and discovered they did not have Casablanca, so we searched for Donny Darko which they also did not have. They didn't have American Beauty, either. Or Pieces of April. They did have Crazy/Beautiful, thank goodness. also "O". Since we are studying Othello in English, we decided to get out "O". We then went to Countdown, got ice cream, biked back to his house, made banana shakes, sat on the tramp, went inside, played a game, and ate tea. After tea we were getting ready to watch our movie but then his family wanted to play a card game so we played. It was okay, but kind of boring. I'm not really a card game person. Oh well. I got really good hands and didn't lose. haha. :P I was king and caleb was queen. finally we got to watch our movie. It was twistedddd. I remember watching it with Mandy. It seemed so much weirder before I read Othello, but it was still mega crazy. I love that movie. haha. It was one of those movies where you watch it and you're like ".....okay.....I'm never watching that again...." and then two weeks later you're like, "Hey, lets get the movie out again cos it's so good!" I missed Mandy when I was looking for all "our" movies. :{ But yeah, Caleb and I also made a chocolate ice cream castle. it was awesome. and yummy. and I wrote "Happy 6 month anni!!!" on the ice cream before we started cutting into it and glopping it onto the tray where we were goign to sculpt it, and Caleb put candles in it and we blew them out and made a wish and said "happy 6 months!!" and it was cool. Then daddy came and got me. He was sort of mad because I don't think about the rest of the family enough but he had forgotten about a few days ago when I had asked if there were any plans for sunday because that was Caleb's and my 6 month anniversary and then outlined our basic plans. So he was a bit better after that. As we neared our house, however, he asked me if I was sexually active. I mean, straight out, blunt, "Are you sexually active?" no. No no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no non on on on on on onon ono nonononononononoononononono. "No," I said and immediately felt like crying. Although I have no idea why I felt like crying. He asked me if I would tell him if I was and i thought about it a moment. Would I? I never thought I would have to tell him so. I mean, until after I was married, but that's a given, right? I said "probably." and he went on to say it didn't really matter to him, as long as I did it safely, and told him, and if I ever had any problems or needed information to go to him and I was like .."okay" which is cool, it's good to have understanding parents but I will never need that sort of understanding. He's like "it's your choice and blahblahblah, not a decision i can make for you" and I'm sitting there swallowing the lump in my throat thinking "but i know, and I made my decision and it's to wait." *sigh* Well, at least I know I'm honest. And my parents do trust me. and they like caleb, so it's okay. everything will be okay. I am not pregnant.