12:48 Early Friday Afternoon   I really want to go see Sara I miss my Wensay. I have been feeling really twittery and fluttery lately. I think I'm actually infatuated with my job? Or maybe I'm merely terrified out of my mind, because I think I'm quite scared most of the time. Mary isn't here to tell me when I've made a mistake. It's natural to make mistakes when you've never gone through a particular process before...right? But I'm alone with all of this new information. I'm alone with an internet connection, two labs, a million and a half samples to analyze and an ever-accelerating sinking (falling?) feeling. Alright. Enough whining. I just need that Fisher Sci. lady to call me back cos I have the creditcard she needs to complete my order. I really hope it's the order for the Kimwipes, because we're running dangerously low. Please call back, miss Fisher Sci. lady...I do want to go to lunch. Maybe I should have given her my cell number? but that would be ridiculous. Man oh man. As far as my room goes (seriously, this is my life. go to work, clean my room. wash rinse repeat), it's...getting there. I'm going to be SO relieved and relaxed (maybe) when my room is empty of the clutter...then I can vacuum, haha. And talk to Dad about moving into the basement (which is secretly the real reason I'm so thoroughly deep-cleaning my room). My problem is that I don't want to throw anything away. Oh, I want to get rid of it, but I don't want to send it to the landfill, and there are certain things that ya just can't recycle / give to the charity thrift store. it hurts me to see my rubbish bin so full. I won't lie. I am dumb that way. GAHALFDKHAILDROTYHALDFKBHYWRIOAT ASDKLFJ ORBGHIOQ#$ TUALDFKGHAERYHUOIEYHAWEKLJH ALDFIGH OQI%Y#$OITH DLFKGHQO % HYOAIJGAL ok. deep breaths. I think i might call it quittin' time as soon as Fisher woman calls and I'll go hang out wiv me mother. my knapweed can wait until tomorrow. If i only work 4 hours today that means I can work a couple of hours tomorrow. also Wednesday was really stressful and I won't go into it. Mostly because I don't even care anymore. grrrrrrr. Anyway I think of good times with Caleb and life gets better, it makes me smile. doot do do. I wish the Fisher lady would call. I think i'm gonna go wash some more labware.