10:54 Late Friday Morning   Look, I'm Tryin' Real Hard Real Hard, babe. I'm trying to let this part of my personality go. Honestly, I'm trying to push it away, to wrestle it to the toilet to flush it down and out of my life. Best to do it now than later when it might insert itself so that it is intrinsic to my being. I would never EVER want this to be intrinsic to my being. I want to be able to instantly realise that I'm being ridiculous, that I'm blaming anyone but myself for a mistake I made, that I'm not owning up and instead am making it worse. I want to be able to instantly know to chill out and take a deep breath and think rationally about the problem. So I'm trying, darlin.