4:56 Thursday Late Afternoon   Frightened and Sick I feel really sick after I eat food. and then I feel really sick if I don't eat food. i hate food. I'm mostly happy though I'm a little sad that i now have no one to go to homecoming with. It wouldn't be that big of a deal because dances suck, but i bought a dress and I was really excited to wear it. i love dressing up. it's just the way I am. I'd ask a boy but I'm really tired of not being beautiful enough to be asked. So i guess I will just have to deal with it and get over it. I have a pretty dress though. what am I supposed to do with it? maybe i should just give it to some girl who is the same size as me and be done with it. i spent a decent amount of money on it though. yeah the relief teacher in small engines was a butt from planet bad-teacher. She was horrible. To the extent that i raised my hand in class and asked her if our teacher would be back tomorrow. When she said yes, i told her, "good." because i'm rude like that. she treated us like we were 5. which only made us want to act like we were 5. i didn't like her. I guess it's just something about me? That i don't like incompetent teachers? maybe.