6:47 Wednesday Evening   Finding the New Hailey's was a blast. I had lots of fun. I don't think her friend / boyfriend liked me that much though. Oh well. Blowing Bubbles is awesome. Sometimes I'm not sure if I'll last 5 more months, just living. But I know if I don't, it'll be an eternity that I never see him again in instead of 5 months. And thinking about forever, 5 months isn't a very long time. Like, a blip. But I miss him so much. And I didn't know I could miss someone so much. You know who else I miss? I miss Scott and Chris and Geniesa and Arina and Simon and Zeb... I miss everyone. I feel like I'm growing farther and farther apart from everyone here. Secluding myself from them and being better friends with people I mostly see online. Like Hailey and even Clint, and of course all the Christchurch kids. I don't feel like I belong here anymore. Maybe I changed too much. Did I change? Maybe when school starts again I'll be better. Maybe not. I kind of like it this way...Because then I don't have to care what anyone thinks. ----------------- 9:17 p.m. I'm really dumb. Wondering how I could hae missed my watch alarm go off. I should call them and tell them I'm way too flaky for their musical and apologise and tell them to find someone else. Maybe someone with a pretty voice. Who can show up when they're supposed to. Anyone but me, though. Tomorrow I might get to weld. woohoo! I played with my dog today. I sat outside for a while and ate orange sherbet and a chocolate ice cream cake that I didn't like that much. The sherbet was okay. But i took as long eating it as I could. I saw lots of people ride their bikes past. I watched the sunset. I cried. Then I came inside. my biggest accomplishment of the night: beaten in 105 seconds, suckers.