9:24 Wednesday Morning
  Unexplained Depression
I was sad at work yesterday, Sara noticed, I was a brat to her, I feel bad about it. I'm such a jerk! The worst part is that I knew that I was being a jerk but didn't really do anything about it besides try and smile more.
I'm lame.
and i found $10 in cash in my messenger bag today, randomly. I wish i could find the $26 I got babysitting. *looks around*
oh, it was in my messenger bag.
in a different pocket.
so i have $36 in cash now, and $78 in the bank (I transferred $100 out, keeping $18 from my tipcheque, then spent $50 on polaroid camera + film...yesssss)
But today I was cool.
And last night i had a scary as dream involving a 3 metre high staircase of which the top metre was missing. And a good friend of mine jumping off of it just to get down. and she survived, she landed on her feet and she was like "see? not so bad" but i still freaked out.
bad dreams!
i'm all for dreaming about caleb again. lame, but true.
We can have badges for each others fan clubs!! Oh how sad I am.
Patric
[sniff]
i used to dream about skyler.
i did after we broke up too. now that is lame.
- im gona go try n make my page pretty. its looking pretty lame. ttyl.
i SING to myself in the mirror. my mom always tells me i'm a really bad singer, but when i'm singing it doesn't sound like it? so one time i actually recorded myself.
and now...
i never sing
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