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9:24 Wednesday Morning   Unexplained Depression I was sad at work yesterday, Sara noticed, I was a brat to her, I feel bad about it. I'm such a jerk! The worst part is that I knew that I was being a jerk but didn't really do anything about it besides try and smile more. I'm lame. and i found $10 in cash in my messenger bag today, randomly. I wish i could find the $26 I got babysitting. *looks around* oh, it was in my messenger bag. in a different pocket. so i have $36 in cash now, and $78 in the bank (I transferred $100 out, keeping $18 from my tipcheque, then spent $50 on polaroid camera + film...yesssss) But today I was cool. And last night i had a scary as dream involving a 3 metre high staircase of which the top metre was missing. And a good friend of mine jumping off of it just to get down. and she survived, she landed on her feet and she was like "see? not so bad" but i still freaked out. bad dreams! i'm all for dreaming about caleb again. lame, but true.
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Well, you can be president of my fan club. That would be fine.

We can have badges for each others fan clubs!! Oh how sad I am.
Thanks for the name of the band, i have a cd, but it was burned...didnt write it down or tell me (i love them).

Patric
i'm sad you started school before i did. now i can't look forward to someone being online when i get on.

[sniff]
and dreaming about caleb isn't lame.

i used to dream about skyler.

i did after we broke up too. now that is lame.
hey babe! yea..i called him like every other day. we talked...but there were a lot of those awkward silent moments..=( just made me feel all shity. oh well watever..lol. he was in bosnia just visiting family. we were suppose to go together, but i ended up having to work. where are you from anyway? what state? Im from MASS. the weather's really shity over here.
- im gona go try n make my page pretty. its looking pretty lame. ttyl.
like right before that 'time of the month' rolls around, i'm SUCH a jerk to people. and i know i am, but it's like i can't do anything about it because only jerkyness comes out =[ it sucks, but i guess thats life for ya?


i SING to myself in the mirror. my mom always tells me i'm a really bad singer, but when i'm singing it doesn't sound like it? so one time i actually recorded myself.
and now...


i never sing


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