12:17 Early Thursday Afternoon   Putting up with Ugly During the day when I'm thinking about him, all my thoughts are happy. I write him notes that he'll never read. But sometimes when I'm talking to him and i'm annoyed at someone else, all of the annoyed feelings I direct towards him and it takes me a few minutes of internal struggle to make myself separate the bad from the good. i.e., the annoyances from Caleb. But lately I've been getting better, and we've talked about this. because as soon as i get annoyed with him he gets annoyed with me, and then we're annoyed at our own selves because we don't know exactly why we're annoyed at each other! of course relationships aren't all sunshines and rainbows with never an argument, blah blah blah, and sure, I've been angry with him and he's been angry with me...but one of the reasons our relationship has lasted so well is because we're so compatible, and he communicates with me and I communicate with him. We communicate to each other. Frustrations never last more than a few days. I think I keep getting sad because I keep dreaming about kisses and i keep waking up alone. And when i remember old arguments, they don't get me angry, and so I see that as a sign that we do resolve our conflicts. and now it is time for a detestable hour of Chemistry recitation.