8:10 Thursday Morning   Resigned Spirits and American Zombies Fuck. Well, Bush reigns another four years at terrorist capital of the world. I just might cry. Tears of resignation, of hopelessness, of hatred. American Zombies. I don't know how many electorals he got, will someone tell me? Last I looked, Bush had two more than Kerry. Now Bush is at the head of the American Zombie Government for another four years. I could scream! I read in Sara's diary that SV held a mock-election. HMMMMM. I wonder what the point was? Half the students probably didn't know the platforms, just that their mum and dad and religion wanted them to vote for President Bush. I would have voted for Kerry with Megan, and Sara would have "forgiven" me of my "faults." I don't need forgiveness for having a mind of my own. It is what God gave me. It is, in fact, the entire point of what I am to God. God gave us brains to think for ourselves, it is "what sets us apart from the animals". Something to that effect. I am so angry. I am so heartbroken. I am so sad. I am so redundant. ----------------- 4:52 p.m. I just found out from Kajsa that Amendment 3 passed in Utah. Bunch of stupid homophobes. I think I might be bisexual. Girls can be really hott. I think it would be cool to kiss a girl some day, even if just to see what it's like. I don't think I could ever have sexual relations with a girl, but I do think I might be slightly bisexual. Put that on your spoon and choke on it. and an initiative on water conservation didn't. Fucking idiots. ----------------- 10:48 p.m. Despite this morning sucking ass (stupid Bush. If only I could vote, it wouldn't make any difference because my state is stupid Utah), the rest of the day was quite nice actually. I mean besides the election, Hyun Woo seeming to have a crush on me, leaving my art folder in the Soul Fire room, getting grey paint all over myself, and having a mild headache by the time I got home. School was rather uneventful. Well, apart from the bad bits. I forgot lunch, but it's alright, there was a little bit of food at Soul Fire. Um, I basically sat and did nothing in all my classes except Technology. Technology I cut out the last piece of backing and painted my frame grey, and then I watched it dry. Actually, I talked to Luke. He's really cool, even though he can be a huge asshole at times. He's not mean to me, which rocks, because he's mean to a lot of other people. I donno, maybe I'm cool by association (Caleb and Zeb), maybe I'm cool by Americanniss (He likes America. Really.), and maybe he really hates me and is nice to my face but says horrible nasty things about me when im not around (which I doubt). Maybe my personality doesn't clash with his. I donno. Any way, it's all good. My family went to a really awesome, funny play. I saw Rachelle there (a girl from youth group), but she was going to a different play. I also sat next to a boy who sits behind me in accounting. As I was leaving, a girl from my art class smiled at me, and Matthew (a guy from youth group) said hi. I'm so popular in the city crowd. :P We had really really really really good food at a place called the Coyote Bar and Cafe or Grill or something, it was really good food, did I mention the food? It was good. It's been a long time since I liked a salad that much. And Nachos. And bread. Mmmm. The sky was so. effing. gorgeous. It reminded me of when I was little, Gramma and Papa, my family, and Courtney (my cousin) went to Las Vegas. We conned Papa into buying us magic packs (Courtney and I), and we were in the Caesar's Palace Mall, where the ceiling is painted to look like the sky, and it changed colour to go from day to dusk to dawn to day. The clouds in the sky during dinner hardly moved at all. It was brilliant. Prettiest "sunset" I've seen since I got here. Oooh and the atmosphere. Across the street a jazz band played. the lights on the trees were white and the lights on the bridge over the avon river changed colours. The laughter and merriment of people could be heard from all directions. It was a fantastic evening. I was so happy. Mmmm, bed time.