When Life Gives You Lemons

Sometimes there are too many choices to be made. Where will we go from here? I feel like everywhere I go outside of L town I think, "yes. I could live here." And while I used to wish to fling myself and my family as far away as possible (like that moment when Caleb said "We could go to Japan" and I immediately started thinking ah hell yes), I'm starting to feel like maybe sticking in this region of the USA for a few years would make more sense.

Like, ideally...colorado.

or even Arizona. Hell, I might even be able to handle as far away as California or central New Mexico. And because of my beloved grandparents, I could even see myself in Texas. Every vacation I've taken in the last year has been me fantasizing about what it would be like to live there.

Maybe that's good. Maybe that means that I'm ready to cut my ties and go. Maybe it means I can handle life far away from my sister and my parents. Maybe it means I can live in a tiny rented apartment after having a beautiful garden all to myself for so long.

But I just keep making L town based plans... Planting trees and garlic and planning next year's adventures with our friends...So my question is this. Will it ever be real? Or is there no life for me outside of this miniature valley?