2:46 Mid Wednesday Afternoon (4 August 2010)

What do I Hope to Gain by This?

Why didn't I stick to soil science? though on the other hand... I have never really truly and utterly failed at anything before...why start now?

This summer has been pretty busy I guess. No real life changing events. I got a UTI in san francisco, kinda put a bit of a downer on our anniversary holiday but whatever. it was a fun trip. There were a lot of homeless people, a lot of smell of pee and stale beer and cigarettes...our hotel was actually a hostel with shared toilets and showers. But we were so close to everything. We visited Castro district, pier 39, China Town and North Beach...Golden Gate Park...so much. if it was touristy we probably hit it. We went to the Exploratorium. it was magical. I bought scarves in china town. We ate so many red bean buns.

so many sesame buns.

Caleb even bought me a moon cake. i love moon cakes. love love love love.

we had good flights and a good time.

that was in July , almost a month ago now.

In the meantime, I guess, in the last month? i've read so many books, so many that I don't really remember all the titles. I forgot how much I love reading, i haven't read this much for fun in years. I'm trying to switch it up now though, I've read a lot of fiction and now I feel it's time to read a little nonfiction so that I can read AND learn at the same time.

I've also gone to lots of parties. but they're not really parties...in the college sense of the word? I guess I just hang out with the same group of friends time after time and play games and watch movies and have conversation. it's wonderful. very enjoyable.

Some sad news, as per the last entry, two of my good friends are moving...Nick in a week from yesterday, Krzptak in under 2 weeks. Nick is moving to a place 2 hours away where they have a good MBA program with security-themed computer sciency stuff. He's so freakin smart! He got such an amazing scholarship and internship program lined up! He's going places. I'm going to miss the hell out of him. But hey, it's only 2 hours away so hopefully we'll be able to visit with each other on the odd weekend.

Krzptak...is moving 5 hours away... but she's willing to meet in the middle where Nick is. so on the odd weekend we'll be able to hang out like old times (current times?). hopefully. so she broke up with her overly controlling and excessively nerdy boyf ages ago. like 7 or 8 months ago. but they were like a month into the contract on their new ap't so she's been sort of living there and sort of living at her sister's house. because one of her jobs isn't paying her until the end of the summer and hte other job she only works 2 hrs a day and doesn't make enough money to pay rent at a whole new place. But on the 1st her contract was set to expire with her exboyf, and shortly before that her sister left her husband and her husband made it clear that Krzptak was not welcome to stay there...so she's living with me and Caleb until she moves. So far its' been fun but I don't want her to leave :(

Also Krzptak made a new friend, Wand, for us who was sort of following her on his way to his place which is really close to her sister's house. he started up a conversation and invited her over for rum, but she was like "uh i don't know you?" and so they just exchanged email addresses and we coordinate times to hang out that way. he seems like a neat person...but honestly? and a little meanly? I think he's too into drugs and not enough into intelligence for our group. We'll see how long it lasts. He's pretty fun to be with so maybe I'm wrong.

Yesterday Krzptak and Wand and I found a neat used bookstore near where her old place is. Fill a bag with any books for 7 dollars? I fit in 21 books and national geographic magazines. that's $.33 a book! such an amazing deal. I can't wait to take caleb there! I was so excited about it, i just wandered back and forth picking up books and reading their inserts and deciding "hey what can it hurt!" I picked up a book by a nobel laureate of physics called The Quark and the Jaguar and a book about home spa treatments and Silent Spring by Rachel Carson...so many novels! So many books about China and Cambodia! So much political science!

so much joy!

anyway. that's been it I guess.

i keep thinking of my friends now, that I hang out with regularly? and then i think of all my friends who I rarely see anymore like Ames and Ange, Hellbell, Hyro, Fordington... and then friends from high school...Wednesday, Aaron, Taytay.... And friends from NZ. Thom, Genie, Talljohn, Talljohn's gf Lea, Rina, Lura and vetti and lyssa...

change is good right? but why do the truly good things have to change? why can't I always play with all of my friends?