11:34 Saturday Morning   Breadwinner Igave caleb a biology lesson yesterday. It was fantastic. It's amazing that he puts up with me...i am forever grateful. He says "how could i not put up with the most beautiful, amazing, wonderful girl in the universe?" If we were to break up what would I possibly not like about him? Like with Scott..there's the whole hates-his-mum thing, the too-fast thing (which I admit is partially my fault...but dammit i hate feeling so dirtified....I must have someone else to blame even if it's not fair), the LDS thing, overly-computerfied thing...etc! Well I'm sure I could find something bad about caleb if I broke up with him but i hope that never happens because that kid has such a nice future...potential rich future...and he owes me a house. doot do do. So Thursday. I took Mickey to the vet, then went home. i sat on my butt all day then went to work. work was fun, yay the cookout, except I felt kind of useless, always following tomas around. Katie's like "umm..go see if Tomas can help you do things." okay! yay! then I came home. Thursday was uneventful, except i stayed up until almost 3 a.m. talking to Caleb. He's my hero. I have lots of heros. everyone's just so heroic. I woke up at 11 a.m. yesterday and found out my grandparents were coming to visit. I also felt really horrible. Because i couldn't tell if i wanted to laugh or cry. and then randomly i was getting horny. I mean, randomly. I'd just be sitting down, writing an e-mail then suddenly "hmm..sex..." fucking ovulation...i hate my reproductive organs with the fiery passion of a billion flames. so anyway, apparently i wanted to cry. ummm, the neighbor's grandson was running around half naked (he was getting rashes so he was out for some 'sun therapy'). um. WOO LITTLE GIRLS. Boys are gross. Then I went to work, yay black and white. It was good, food was nice. dessert was not that good...but eh. I still love my coworkers. they are all so fun. I got home around 9. My grandparents were there. I hung out with them for a while, then went to my room when they went to bed and talked to Caleb for a few hours. Also I got to talk to my Sara. We haven't really hung out much since I got home. It's been making me uber sad. Because it feels like she replaced me with Derek, and then she's got other things that come up and then it feels like (not saying it is like..but it feels like) she doesn't want to be with me at all. EH. I'm over it. maybe. Then around like 1:30 or so I went to bed. And got up at 8:30 this morning. Had pancakes. Looked at my shells from Fiji. Mm, memories. Honeymoon: Fiji. totally. yeah hmm. getting married at age 21 isn't bad. 21 or 22. i like plans. Sara called me. I was so excited. But then she told me she couldn't hang out with me today. Eh. C'est la vie. I probably can't do anything either. cleaning, grandparents, that whole spiel. Tonight I'm going to dinner at Shyrl's with my family. Fair enough. Today I might go to Walmart. If so, I'm going to see about convincing my parents to let me go to Ross to see about finding some decent khaki pants. Gosh i just love how relevant my life seems to be. oiy.