8:41 Mid Monday Morning (22 March 2010)

Wake Up, Ya Damned Fool.

Bad dreams are bad.

Last night as I was sleeping on this saggy couch in a Lubbock motel room with 4 other women (one of whom I can barely stand), I had a terrible horrible no good very bad dream. I had this huge house, and was playing with my kitty Luxio. And then I go over to my neighbours' house who happen to be some friends of the family with a daughter my age. I guess she's visiting her parents because she's there, we'll call her Kye. Kye's mom is wandering around her house with a pot of garlicky rice or something, and all the neighbourhood potted plants and pets are following her around. I'm watching this parade of plants and cats and at the end of the line I see my pet Mickey. even though he died almost a year ago. I am excited, anyway. He apparently lives at a house a few blocks away so I follow him and basically tell their family that I can give him a better home and to please let me take him. and for some reason they do, so I carry him back to my houses. but then he starts turning demonic and I have to kill him. to go through any more detail than that would be painful.

Later I was relating this horrible incident to Caleb and he confesses to me that he hooked up with Kye a few days ago. He swears he didn't sleep with her, and that it was just kissing and what have you, so next time I was hanging out with Kye I confronted her about it and she also confirms it was merely kissing. In any case I was really hurt but didn't like want to divorce Caleb or anything. ugh pain pain pain.

those dreams are nothing but pain. now that they're in words maybe they won't be in images in my head anymore.

EDIT: Caleb's cheating was a separate dream. I realise that wasn't clear upon re-reading. Caleb never cheated on me in real life.