1:43 Early Wednesday Morning   Complaining about Nothing faj;ldsghal;fgha;ghal;fkbhal;dfgha;rlg hadf;klbhalgf a;dfklharih gadflkhakfdasdl;kfja klsdfha l;sdkfja lsdkgha l;rk ;sdkfj ;sdfklh;akga;rlihg;aedut;alsdfj;aklsdgy o;aeritjalsdkfnma,sdf;aeri ;aowekfj ;sdklfhu oaieru alsdkfj a;silgu opaeriu tlasdk fjl;aieru oaweiu rlasdk fj;aileru;oa iwej rl;adeufo; iauf eoij. I want to scream so badly. People get indignant when you assume things, even when your assumptions are accurate. I know assuming things is mean, judging people is horrible, but...it just seems a little bit on the hypocritical side. Mmm talked to caleb and Aaron (oh our poor lovechildpea that never could be...erin...i'm going to be thinking about her all night) and Nicole. I painted. Today I hung out with Scott and I saw a 10 for 5 at Claires and I got all excited and when i got home I called Sara immediately because i figured it was after 3 and she'd probably be home. but she wasn't. oh well. She got online later and i told her about it but she already knew. She didn't seem excited. She said she'd go with me tomorrow after he went to work. Fair enough. but then I read her latest journal entry and now i feel like crying and i feel absolutely completely stupid now and I don't even want to go. Why do i even bother. I can't wait until I start my second job so I don't have to be holed up here feeling sorry for my pathetic self. I am so tired of crying. one little thing happens that's bad and suddenly my whole world just falls down. I swear i've got issues. Aaron promised he'd never leave me for a boy. That's a little bit of a relief. Hanging out with Scott today was cool, he's an okay kid when you get him away from the computer. I don't think I'll ever attempt to throw a party again. Why should I bother attempting anything these days. December cannot come soon enough. and i still feel like screaming What is with these entries. one day it's all mopey, the next day all excited, and then after that it's mopey again. Well i'll tell you what, dear journal. I was happy today. I laughed out loud. I LOLed my pants off when I was taking the piss out of a typo caleb made and then he didn't realise that i was leaving out the 'r' in 'breast' like he did and then he said "i like your breasts just the way they are." Oh my LOL-ing LOLs. Laughing out loud and he STILL didn't get it. but that's alright, because I did and I felt clever. I wrote Erin a pretty story that had a happy ending. It even had pictures. and now, dear journal. I'm going to bed. And I promise not to cry. ----------------- 9:09 p.m. Someone close to me made me cry today. They weren't happy tears either. But on the bright side, I worked on Clint's painting and he knows that i suck at painting people so he's not expecting a masterpiece, phew! And Aaron came over!!! yay! He took me to the post office and I dropped off my 22 page dietter to Caleb. :D And this random big old guy behind us was listening to our conversation and joined in! It was great! I love random big old guys! Then he took me to old navy. We felt dirty. hehehehe. I got shirts for $5 each though, plain fitted tees (or so i thought) to iron shiny letters onto. xD Then we went to Borders and had a frap and visited the most awesome section of books and it was the funniest thing ever. Aaron is the man. Then we went to dinner at Indian Oven which was awesome. The guy waiting tables told Aaron he hadn't seen him in before, was this his first time? it was so awesome. He recognises like everyone who comes in. He recognised me. xD Beautiful. One lady came in with her son and she was like "hey matt" to him and that i thought was really awesome. Plus the food was great. MMmmm, I love Indian. then we came back to my house and put music into a folder that i'll burn onto a dvd or a few mp3 cds or something. yay. then just hanging out until he left. hehe! the other day, after my zombie party, my dad asked who the guy was who kept putting his arm around me. hehe! Trust me, noo threat to caleb whatsoever. Just a best friend.