3:28 Mid Friday Afternoon (2 April 2010)

Fooling. Sort of.

So I never thought I'd be excited about this, and this is pretty much the only place I can express my excitement, except to Caleb (who is beginning to get excited too, I can tell). Caleb and I have been going back and forth a little bit on the whens of babymaking, for him it's always been "in five years or so" starting at 20, then 21, and now 22. and for me it's always been "at 25 or so."

once I figured out that i do want to try to have one or two offspring to raise to be responsible and open-minded members of society, I always enjoyed thinking about the logistics of it. sure the conception part is easy enough, in theory, but what about the health costs that one accrues as the pregnancy progresses? and then the additional health insurance once it's born? and of course do you invest in cloth diapers or disposables or a combination of the two? which uses more water? How do you even clean cloth diapers? Where does the baby sleep, especially when it gets old enough to sleep on a bed? How do you child-proof a home when you can barely cat-proof it? Do we have enough time to have a baby? would I stay home or would caleb stay home or would we both work and rely on day care/baby sitters? Would we ever get any alone time ever again? We have two bedrooms but does that mean we could never have a guest stay? How would we make the space for a crib? where would my sewing machines go? Will i be a militantly earth-ethical mom or the mom who makes do with her resources, even if they are made in china?

Anyway Caleb's thought process was always more along the lines of "yeah kids. wait, that means spending $$$$$$?!?!? never mind then." which amused me because he was always the one more interested in reproducing than me (though I was always the one more interested in practicing).

However when I got back from Texas last week somehow we got talking about it and he actually agreed with me, that we should try to get prego in 2ish years for a baby in 3 ish years. So since then I've been thinking about it a lot more, because up til now I was just like "oh well, we'll cross that bridge (regarding the when of babymaking) when it comes...in 2 years...and negotiate from there." But this is good because we're on the same page and can prepare for it better. and I don't feel as stupid for looking up different kinds of cloth diapers anymore. Before it was like "what am i doing, i don't even know when i'm going to have a baby" and now i can rationalize that while i won't need them for 3 years or so, learning about an issue that you know is going to present itself is never a bad idea.

and in other news, i'm hoping that my research will get more interesting when i actually start ...doing real things. like processing all the samples i collected and what have you. And soon sample-collecting will be finished! until next year! and next year it will likely go a lot more smoothly and less stressfully because I'll have a plan! unlike this year! and hooray! and etc! And hopefully next year will have more typical weather - worse inversons, more snow and wind events and therefore more opportunities to sample.

Also caleb is amazing and i love him more every day plus he is really really handsome and i am super duper amazingly lucky. /mush