2:37 Mid Sunday Afternoon   Frozen Finger Tips mysister was excited about not hanging our clothes on the line anymore when it gets too cold and not sunny anymore. She was excited about having warm, dry clothes. It makes me sad. The sun has good bleach. which is bad for my black clothes but good for having clean things to wear. Plus i think it smells better. Plus the dryer is the 2nd most energy using appliance in the house...and i really don't know how i could deal without my refrigerator...so i might as well try to do without the dryer. anyway. i think hanging clothes out to dry is a good way to get things done. my parents are going to spain soon, i'm in charge of the house. it's a huge responsibility. and i just quit my job. and i really hope they stay safe. because i don't want to be in charge of my sister for five more years until she's 18. i think i'd better go study for my chemistry test. --------------- 10:00 pm They don't want to lose their daughter he said. Not anywhere near as much as we do, he thought. Fear is a funny feeling. I am so afraid of little crawly things that it's almost funny. i was making my bed and i saw the foam part of an earphone. at first glance i thought it was a spider. a really big, black spider. I totally freaked out. Every muscle in my body was tensed and every nerve in my body was alerted. It was a strange feeling. anyway, i really like the idea of running away for a week and pretending to be criminals or pirates or outlaws or witnesses...perhaps political prisoners trying to escape. with him. stay in a different hostel every night. make up a name and pay in cash. fall asleep with his arms around me.