11:12 Late Monday Morning   I Won't Bother with a Bus Last night I talked to Arina for a long time on MSN. It was cool. She's a really awesome person. It's funny how different we are and yet so the same. It's interesting, I sometimes feel like there's no one else in the world who is the same as me, and then I talk to people i normally don't talk to and I realise wow. I'm not alone! And sometimes that makes me kind of sad, actually, unreasonably, because for some reason I feel like I should be special or something. Whatever. You are not a special or unique snowflake. You are the same piece of decaying organic matter as everyone else.--Fight Club is an amazing movie. But it's nice knowing that, just in case I am a freak, at least there are other people just as freakish. Like talking to Amy today. Amy's a great person. I don't know if there's anyone who DOESN'T like her. And if there is, they're obviously scummy and just jealous. And it's nice to know I'm not the only oilaphobiac out there. I got unreasonably upset this morning when i woke up and came out because mum had just stepped into the shower. I have to laugh at myself but still. I keep trying to shove the thought, "She should have KNOWN" back into my brain because she shouldn't have known, she hardly knows which foods I hate let alone my showering schedule. I still felt a surge of anger this morning. I swear I am obsessive compulsive or something. my hygiene rituals. I freak out if they get messed up and I think I'm going to die of being dirty or something. But I'm clean now. very clean and un-oily. And now im going to go eat a light breakfast. And then I'm going to brush my teeth. And then I'll go to Calebs to make daisy chains, maybe have lunch, and then go shopping. Except I'm saving the fifty dollars from my allowance to go to Coppelia. I wonder if my atm card will work here... Anyway that's not until Thursday. Today is Monday and I'll just work on that. Take one day at a time. I won't see Caleb on Tues Wed or Thurs because of exams and studying. Maybe on Thurs. In which case that's not horrible. But then you know, not seeing him or talking to him for THREE WHOLE DAYS isn't really that devastating either. I WILL SURVIVE and not just barely, I'll be okay. The only problem is that everyone ELSE will be studying and exam taking too. poo. Oh well. Maybe I'll go on a walk with my Mum. Wait, wasn't I going to go? Okay. Yeah. ----------------- A Few Minutes Later Oh wait I have to say something else. Last night, I dreamt about Zombies! I actually had a nightmare! I haven't had a nightmare in as long as I can remember. And then I dreamt that I was at Kirri's party and i dono. it was really weird. But I am so obsessed with Zombies that I even dream about them now. How pathetic.