3:58 Sunday Afternoon   I am where I want to be I am lost to 90% of the people i know. please do not try to find me, i like it here. today has been kind of abominable. a thread of pain vibrates lengthwise through the left half of my torso. It's not pleasant. It's not unbearable anymore, but surely it is not enjoyable. I lied and said I felt so much better...because i want to go to the book study tonight. Lots of people suffer greater traumas than this, i really should stop complaining.