9:07 Mid Tuesday Night (14 April 2009)   Drama Trauma Sauna I like words that rhyme, even imperfectly. I had a dream last night that I was at the soil judging competition again and it was the final day of the competition...but it had something to do with cake decorating and there wasn't much actual soil involved. I was talking to some random guy from K state about something I don't remember now when L brings me a cookbook and I'm the leader of the team and then we're going to drive back home in the van. The sky was purple and there was a big pile of hay. dreams are difficult to describe. Ames told me about a dream she had when I saw her at the party on Saturday night. It was about my wedding, like 12 people were there and it was one of those awkward receptions where the bride is like 18 and has known her new husband for like 3 months (very commonplace around here). But I was really happy apparently and there was a LOT of excess beer that I gave to her and Angie and we filled up their cars with it and it was like a year's supply of beer for them. I laughed. But now i'm not laughing. And now I'm getting whiny. Because it's looking more and more like only 12 people are going to come. though instead of beer I'm gonna have a shitload of extra wine. My favourite cousin just told me today that she isn't planning to come. my only cousin on my mom's side probably can't come either. one of my best friends from childhood can't come. several of my aunties and uncles won't be able to come. No one from NZ but Caleb's immediate family can come. and I know more than 12 people will show up but it's still pretty sad when I think of all the people who i won't get to see. Do you think this wedding is for me? Well other than an excuse to call people from across the country and/or world to visit and celebrate...I was more excited for the attendees than the ceremony. the party rather than the words. We've been together for 4 years and 7 months and 2 days now. getting married isn't that strange of a step to take. oh and more bad news? The amazing lady who has had more of a hand in helping my faith probably can't officiate, at least not by herself. It is ridiculous that someone who took a brief internet course can do it but someone who just graduated from divinity school cannot. She lives in another state, though, so it was already a huge thing that i even asked her if she'd be interested in officiating to begin with. I don't want her to feel obligated to come out because it's expensive to travel and I can see her another time, but I don't know what to say because I'd be a lying liar-face if I said I didn't want her to come out for the wedding. RAWR MARR MARRD LIFE IS HARD ugh and then i took this soil chem exam today and...ugh. ugh ugh ugh. two weeks is finals week. Final presentation AND paper in soil water capstone TMDL project and many assignments...GROUP assignments... coming due in water quality and pollution Final presentation and 8 page research paper nearing their due dates in intermediate writing 2 lab reports due this week, 1 i need to revise from two weeks ago, 2 due next week in soil analytical techniques potential homework assignment coming up and final exam in soil chemistry final exam in toxicology and then....it's over. and the next nightmare begins. I can't register online for one of my fall courses because i'm not a public health major. I'm a public health minor, and the professor who teaches it has already agreed to sign me in so it's not a big deal but there is another course that uses this class as a corequisite so I can't register for that class either until i get signed in to this one. DAHHHHHHH. It's not a big deal except that I'm worried it will fill up and I won't be able to get into the lab i want. the point of being a senior is getting to register first so I can get into the classes I need to graduate! and i hurt my ankle today playing DDR. poos. I AM DONE WHINING NOW easter was lovely. party saturday was great. had a lot of interesting conversations with both people who i've known for a while, like Ames, and people who I just met...like those whose names escape me now. one of whom apparently goes to the same church as caleb and me. also i'm going to an interesting-sounding play tomorrow for free. yay!