10:37 Late Tuesday Night   A Worrisome Lack of Worry ok - here's the deal. me and my period are almost 2 and a half weeks late. My breasts are shrinking. I'm losing weight. I feel so awful lately; today i felt on-and-off nauseous all through chem recitation and was on the verge of leaving at any given moment -- even though it was actually relatively useful. Oh gosh and at random moments I just feel like crying! then I feel like laughing! During the cool-down at Belly Dance today, I felt like i was either going to either puke or implode. I've been drinking a lot of coffee lately. I hate caffeine but love the taste of coffee. And the aroma. Sadly there is only the one pot of regular coffee in the mail room. I need to make my own but even at home we only have regular. I should just go and buy some decaf. Maybe next time I go down to SLC Roasting Co. Maybe that's what makes me feel sick. Caffeine makes me sweaty and jittery and fatigued at the same time. I have the worst luck with drugs. Maybe it's because I don't eat well. Don't try to pin this on my vegetarianism. I can barely manage to have 2 meals a day let alone 3. i usually snack on unhealthy foods and even then i don't eat very much. so i don't eat very much and of what i do eat, it's all junk. i hate my eating habits, i just need to get the gumption to change them. Perhaps it's the stress of starting the new semester of uni. Maybe i have some made-in-china toothpaste with antifreeze in, maybe that's what's making me sick. Maybe I should opt for the hardy American way of blaming everyone else. yes. i like that.