Satuday, 12:13 a.m.   Let Me Be Your Difference Played Bullrush today. Rah! Got tackled and whatnot, I am teh QUEEN and such! Oh I just love games that I can play. They finally realise that I'm not a girly girl. That I'm not afraid of a little physical pain. Caleb invited me to go triking wif him and Zeb, and that was supafun. I got tired tho. But I have mad triking skillz0rz! yay me! the best was riding on the back, trying to balance. I don't know. It was awesome. Trivial Pursuit would have been better if my parents hadn't shown up and joined my team. Daah! They should be good parents and lock themselves away and only appear now and again to give me money and food. Or something. No that's not true, I love me mum and dad, but ... I don't want to hang out with them and my friends at the same time. even with my parents on my team, by the way, we still lost. There were how many groups? How many teams? And we got the lowest score. Haha, go us. Anyway. I miss affection. At the bible study thing? This guy, Rod or something. He was flirting with me and hitting on me and stuff. I really. I don't know, I really miss being thought of as beautiful. Once I got a taste of it and it's hard to go back to being obscure and self conscious. I want to break out of my shell. What I want more than that is just a hug. A nice, genuine, I-love-the-way-you-are hug. A kiss on the cheek, and also a mug of hot cocoa please. Thank you. it hurts me how broken the world is. my passions are thwarted by lack of outputs. It's times like this when I wish to scream as loud as I can. It's times like this when I want to spin around in circles, jump rope, ride on a see saw, or swing on a swingset. Be young and agile and energetic. It's times like this when I just want to curl up on the couch with you and watch an old movie. I came up with an acronym for "Rumplestiltskin" today. Some people are difficult to figure out. Some people I'll never understand. You're good at hiding feelings, Maybe you don't have any. I would be sad if I didn't have feelings. Actually, if i didn't have feelings, I suppose I wouldn't care. I would be apathetic. I think that's one of the worst feelings in the world. The anti-feeling. Apathy. Trapped in Apathy. Forever lost in Apathy. "We're losing our children to Apathy." Donnie Darko was such a good movie. Ejookayshun mayd me intelijent. ----------------- 1:26 p.m. I have to give Nik credit for help in creating the acronym for rumplestiltskin. Heh. Later I'll find the paper I wrote it on and tell you what it is. Because im sure you're dying to know. ----------------- 9:13 a.m. You bring the thermos of hot cocoa I'll provide the blankets (and chocolate licquor) Get your raincoat, baby, This weather won't stop us. Surrender your lips to mine I've won the battle, All's fair in love and war. I'll give up my lips to yours And we're both victors. Heh. I liked my AIM profile but am inclined to change it now.