Desparate Attempts   Today was rather...boring and pointless. The boys weren't here. Not that I hafta have the boys to survive... Derek didn't even talk to me this morning. I walked around with Natalie. She never has any emotion, which didn't help mine. I ate breakfast and soo did not feel good after eating...I like laid on my desk and moaned and groaned all of first hour while we watched a movie. Then I went to second hour. I wanted to run up and hug Derek all morning, juss to be spontaneous. Shane and the sophy next to me that kept hitting me kept my mind off my aching stomach. I actually got my assignment done. I figgered out my problem....I start the math problem and do half of it but I don't finish it all the way to get the answer! Third hour was -way- stupid. I was so mad. John decided to 'test' us. He gave me one of the easiest assignments (thank goodness) setting up a wired mike on the stage to work. I had it all going good, it juss wouldn't work b/c of one of the buttons on the mixer. I knew it was juss one lil' button on the mixer. I gave up and John told Brian to figger out my mistake. Yeah, a day and a half later Brian & John together figger out what's up with the mixer. I failed my 'test' b/c the teacher and another experienced student couldn't get it right! How was I supposed to get it right?! I was neither the teacher nor experienced. They were both being stupid dumbos about it and made fun of me until they couldn't figger it out themselves. Yeah, now who's the smart one huh....aw, screw it. I hate that class despite it's easiness. We're supposed to have 10-15 assignments...we don't even get 15 assignments during the tri and we're supposed to distribute that thru 12 ppl....pfff...Impossible. The only thing I can do now to save my grade ish hand in my journal...not that it'd do any good b/c there's nothing in there! My stalker also talked to me today and like touched my arm or something *shudders*. Speaking of which, he juss called. Stupid cow. We got our schedules for next tri: English Lit with Kunz US Studies with Baldwin (again) Seminary Algebra 2 with Jenson (again) (Which means 2nd lunch I believe? Great, juss great, watch all my friends will now have 1st lunch since I'm switching lunches from tri to tri. This sucks) And then I have BIS1400 which I should've took last year (still bitter about that) and I don't care who I have it with as long as I getta do it. sheesh... The only things I'm worried about ish Kunz the debater teacher and my lunch! I don't really want Seminary 3rd hour either but hey...as long as I have it I'm good... Fourth and fifth hour drug on as the teachers talked non stop and I read my book in between all the "blah blah"s. The two boys weren't here today and it made the whole day like drag on. It kinda sucked. I mean, we didn't like die or anything, but it would've helped to see/talk to 'em. Natalie took the bus home. Weird. I followed Megan around to get a ride with her. I was gonna ask Derek to give me a ride home, but he juss said 'cya' and was gone. He talked to me after 2nd hour tho...he told me a story about his work and how he got sprayed with acid. Still wanna hug the boy... I feel like running and jumping in a boys arms...anyone willing to catch me? Yeah, thought so. I had my pink beanie on and braids with like pink scrunchies on the end of my braids. haha It was ugly really. The guys looked at me with that sparkle in their eyes tho. teehee. Anthony still does that eyebrow raising thing. Lately he's actually said words to me like "hi" or "hey", ....interesting. All of this happens -after- I make faces at him while in separate cars next to each other at a stop light. *smiles sweetly* If I'm gonna have guy problems I might as well add another guy to my pile right? I wanna ask Anthony out. Just to see what he does. To see if he even thought about liking me. Ooooh I did the candle stick swing dance move with him...memories... Him getting angry b/c I can't Cha Cha worth crap. I know he's a flirtatious guy but c'mon he's been doing the looks and stuff for like weeks now. Now he can't even take his eyes off me when we pass each other in the hall (which is often). haha....He can't resist! I bet he'll go out with me...I juss gotta ask ...which I think is stupid b/c the -guys- are supposed to ask! *sighs* Fourth boy added to the pile of who to ask to go ice skating with me... I think Nates going Ice skating with me juss b/c someone has mentioned it to him. I took a nice long hot shower. mmmm I think Davids dropped off the face of the earth and nobody knows about it. bah hah! Good Riddance! I don't wanna go to the activity tonight. I think it's time for me to go inactive...and then not get along with my family...then go and live with my aunt. Oh wait...that's the -bad- example. teehee...I love her anyway. Wrapping up all this school and I'm going to Vegas! The boys musstt come baacckkk.....