I went to the Haunted Forest last night! With a boy. A date. With John.

Totally awesome. Acutal forest, chain saws, gaints monsters (on stilts), flame blower things, all five senses going crazy at once. Niiccee. I think Nightmare on 13th did a very good job with the senses too, but I don't think it was as long with as much creativity. But it was a Tuesday night so it was kinda dead. I had the same reaction every time I got scared it sometimes got annoying. I made him go in front of me and I ended grabbing him somewhere to follow him in the dark.

They say they get in the faces of the ones most scared or react to them, I swear I didnt do ANYTHING, it was just the fact I was smaller than John and was kinda behind him/walking next to him. No one bugged him really, they only got in my face. I didn't react of course until they stuck their face in mine. Why do they pick on me? Why not the big guy in front/beside me?

Thankfully we only saw one clown. And I survived the claustaphobic area too although it comes to the back of my mind ALL the time. Don't know if that's healthy.

We had went to Panda earlier and after the forest we went for shakes. I got a pumpkin shake. Totally in love. Total craving for pumpkin. Wheee.

I was thinking about dating and haunted forests/houses in general and I realized that our night was a ...normal date outing...nothing like huge to make it memorable, just normal....he acted the big man that wasn't scared of anything and I played the scared girl behind him. I was wondering why such a normal date outing like that would be so...refreshing. Then I realized it was refreshing and normal because -I- was normal. I wasn't reeking anxiety, locked in my own world of panic and trying to smile and nod through it all, I didn't get unnecessary special attention for once (well besides the normal level of attention to give a girl in a haunted place). I was positive and excited, I wasn't rude or awkward, I was assertive and blunt with what I wanted/said, I was just...normal. I was me. I wonder if lack of caring about dating/impressing ppl in the past has helped me be more myself when I am in such situation.

I know feeling "normal" is a lil' cliche with peoples various definitions of the word, but for my meaning of normal, it was ...refreshing.

Although I usually feel this ...normal and comfortable with the guys I don't like...in that way...