So Cody, the mailman guy, he's all young and hot and unfortunately married with a kid on the way, anyway he came into the office for me to sign off some mail like usual and he started a casual convo like he usually does.

"How are you?" "I'm just fine...." *me signing papers* "Smiley and quiet as usual", he says. I responded "Oh, is that what you think?" and I kinda laughed (like I usually do when a hot guy talks to me) and continued signing, trying to remember the date. He said "Yup, see, there's the smile (cuz I laughed) *and then a pause cuz I was dating the paper* anndd...there's the quiet. I was right on."

Oh my gosh. Talk about bright red. It was soo smooth the way he said it. In my defense I was busy concentrating on writing! I can't get it out of my head now. Gah. That was cute. And then I missed a spot cuz that comment messed me up and he wrote my name down for me in one spot. Teehee. How can he be so casual in talk and his job at the same time? My knees and confidence shake when he walks in the door cuz he'll talk to me and I'll say someting stupid cuz I'm trying to concentrate on writing my own name! What the hell is wrong with me?!

I realize now that it is his confidence that is so attractive to me, and the reason he has such confidence is because he doesn't like me. Now if only I could find both qualities in one man.