Happy Birthday Grandma Spencer! The big 80!

You finally decided to retire. I hope you had fun in Hawaii cuz its back to the cold winter here for ya.

I can't talk about you in the joking way I talk about others. Yer just...different. And when we're together you seem...different with me.

Well since I moved away from you I can honestly say I miss you.

Is it selfish of me to want to keep you around? Even if I haven't seen you in a couple weeks?

o o o o o o o o o o o o o o o

Yeah sure, I met a guy and he was nice ....til the second date. And then I met another guy and he was nice, until he learned I was a Mormon. That ended quickly. Thus the story of my life. And they say that mormons are the prejudice ones around here. I once had the theory it was "relationship or nothing at all" cuz I've never successfully been 'friends' with someone who was attracted to me (basically no male friends period). But now I think that theory has changed to "relationship, inappropriate relationship, or nothing at all". You choose. You want the status of bf/gf, be used, or nothing at all?

Ugh I remember this feeling from like two months ago. My last period and a cold at the same time. I can't tell if the sweaty everything is a fever or just symptoms of my period. If I get a cold every other period I think I'm gonna go nuts. Times like these when I'm glad to be alone. Although being drugged for everything at once does have its advantages....

"I'm not leaving you.... I'm not leaving you...."