The first of the year and my only emotion so far is depressed.

As of January 3, 2010 I have literally lost all contacts in my 'old' unprogressing life.

Even if I wanted to live that life again, I think I burned all my bridges.

I feel like I have lost it all, everything. And I have to find it somewhere else now. As if losing it wasn't hard enough. Good hell this is so hard.

A new slate.

A New Year.

A new beginning.

God, give me the strength to go on.