Not again... I have to write fast b/c I hafta go to work in like five minutes. I don't have a journal anymore! And I'm going nuts waiting until Friday to get another one so I'll have to use this one in the meantime. Thank goodness for back up journals and saving ones sanity. I was on the bus going to school and I said Hi to this James, older dude that's a regular on the bus also... and then a black dude got on the bus, with his pants hanging down lookin' all cool. We got off the bus and I usually talk to James while walking down the street to my school, but this black guy like...butted in and followed us and crap. He like stood right in front of me, kinda like blocking my way and James was by my side...felt a lil' bubble invaded. I was telling James where I worked (we're still getting to know each other) and this black guy like butts into the convo and tells me about his mother or something being a legal secretary for 20 yeras in Cali. blah blah blah. James started acting funny and it was getting harder to talk to him b/c it was like the two boys were doing a dance around me or something. I dunno... Then James was getting the hint that this black wanted to ..talk to me so he kinda walked away without saying bye or anything until the black guy actually stopped and talked to me. James stopped, turned around and stood there watching us. Kinda weird, but I know he was juss sticking around in case this black guys presence isn't wanted. Kinda sweet I guess... This black guy said his name, shook my hand, I said my name and he asked if I would go out with him (Maybe at Applebees where he works supposedly). I did more than say no, I shook my head so James would know that I was saying no to this stranger so if he made any other moves, James would know they're not wanted. He obviously wanted to know why and I gave him my usual excuse which is that I'm not interested in dating he's all "aw man" crap like that. He said that he'd like to 'talk' to me. Thas what they all say. Honestly, they can't look at my body and just want to 'talk' to me. lol jk He said he was thinkin about joining my LDS school, haha, I said "the day that happens I'll think about 'talking' to ya." The black kid was aware that James was there staring at us and kept asking if he was my boyfriend or not or something. What part of I'm not dating do you not understand? Haha. My posessive bf...hahah funny. But I finally ...got away and James was still there waiting for me to go inside the school. On my way into the school tho the black kid dropped his stuff on the ground *thud* and like stormed over to James like he was gonna use his black words on him or something "What's your problem huh?" and then pick a fight. He was like mad that James was prying into my life and prolly the cause of me saying no to him or something. I dunno what his problem was... but I waited and the kid came back and picked up his stuff and then walked with James down the street. Scary tho... It looked like they were gonna fight! And I dont know either of them very well! eeep! I had a thought once maybe a month ago that as strange as it was...I would prolly trust James with my life, if I had to. If I got in trouble on the bus. I don't know him well, but he's a good person. He'd help me. I wanted in and saw the security office dude juss inside the school and told him about my delimma. He said 'we slightly are located in a bad area for that kind of thing'. Dude, I juss came from Rose Park...this is a great location as far as I'm concerned! But yeah....thas like a monthly occurance for me now-a-days. Man, sometimes I wish I did have a real decoy or boyfriend instead of an imaginary one to protect me. I want security ya know. Anyways.... Life goes on. So much has happened in my life and I'm still in the same place. Heh I know a long verison of something that happened quickly. I think it's dumb when they ask "Why not?" when I say no to them. The question is more like "why would I?" I prefer boys that can keep their pants on?.... It's official now I have an imaginary boyfriend! I juss hope it doesn't come down actually proving my boyfriend status and hafta prove it with a live decoy.... We'll stick with imaginary til then. Oh goodness, this is why I need another journal...now!