Happiness Wanted   "Fear neither causes the thing feared to happen nor prevents it." You know what I can't figger out. When everyone else had their bf's did I ever dump them quickly and bluntly? I don't think so. I didn't do that to them b/c I figgered it would prolly be really mean and hurtful. Did I ever say bluntly, "I dont want to go b/c he's going to be there." Who sat on the couch at Natalies being a third wheel while Megan fumed b/c her best friend ditched her for a boy? Who went over to Kirris house almost everyday knowing that Landen would prolly be there? Who went over to Scotts house w/o knowing him and agreeing to hang out with those two together? Did I ever decide to totally despise anyone elses bfs....well, besides the obvious Clint. Kirris cute and nice. She said she appreciated the fact that I stuck around even tho Landen was there. That was nice of her. But actions will always speak louder than words. I would think b/c I did it for them that they'd have the deciency to try fer me. But hey, I guess no one cares. "A thousand times a day our love of happiness is cut short by our even greater fear of it."