Watching my roommate being unemployed coming up on six months now is making me want to fly away from here.

If I were unemployed for six months I wouldn't sit around the house.

I'd go to another country for at least a month.

So not everyone could afford to go play for a month or more, but both she and I have the means ($) and she prefers to be homebound (even tho she declares to be a traveller).

I couldn't sit at home all day like she does. I'd go crazy. I'm going crazy just watching her.

Imagining all the things I would do, the places I would go, if I didn't have to go to work every day.

I'm saving up for something big one day tho.

When the boss retires I'm taking at least one month off and then maybe a few more trying to find another job.

I dream about Italy, Greece, Scotland, Ireland...

Boring tourist stuff. But still. History is important people!

Take a train and zoom through as many countries as I can in Europe before I run out of money. Italy, Switzerland, Austria, Germany, Belgium, Netherlands all the way up to Denmark. Copenhagan maybe. Or Greece up to Bulgaria, Romania, Hungary, Slovakia, Poland.

Sigh. Dreams.

Well I'm not dreaming about traveling currently with the whole coronavirus (Covid-19) out there spreading throughout the world.

I'm glad I don't have any overseas trips planned this year...

So for now I'll stick with dreams of NYC, Niagara Falls, Canada, The Redwoods, other National Parks in all the states as soon as I learn of them...

....maybe avoid Washington state for now...

This song describes my roommate perfectly.

Another dream; to get rid of her. Maybe there's some ethics of kicking an unemployed person out the house and totally cruel to make her move back home with her parents, but maybe it'll get her butt in gear and stop being lazy and picky and just take whatever job she's offered and place she can find. Way too comfortable being jobless.

"I'm in love [I live] with a girl I hate,

She enjoys pointing out

Every bad thing about me

I'm in love [I live] with a critic and a skeptic

A traitor,

I'd trade her in a second

She's a backseat driver,

A drama provider,

An instant update of the world

She's a first class liar

A constant forgetter

(She's attractive, but bitter)"

-She's a Lady : Forever the Sickest Kids

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I think this song applies to another person I know of also, but I don't know him very well. (attractive, but bitter)

Valentines Day 2020

Said guy was at the gym doing more exercises and exerting way more energy than I normally see him do throughout the week.

I figured it was because its VDay and there's no one to go home to or take out.

I'm in the same boat. I know how he feels. Maybe feeling bummed.

So on my way out, maybe it'll make him feel better about life, I wrote a quick note that says "I like your face" and put it on his car. (We've left the gym at the same time a few times so I knew which was his) A harmless little Valentine, if you will.

His car hasn't been seen since that fateful day.

He's still at gym. I see him there. But his car is no where to be found.

Sooo... ?

Did I take it too far? Or is he just super paranoid? A coincidence?

It was supposed to be a flattering note. On a holiday. Not a stalker note. Randomly during the year.

Maybe he's had stalking issues with other ppl at the gym before? (maybe he's so conceited he thinks its a stalker situation? Maybe he thinks every girl that flirts with him is a committment monster?) Maybe my note implied I knew where he parked, what he drove, what he looked like and I might know where he lives next? (And I thought girls analyzed things too much) Maybe his car died that day? Maybe he felt pinpointed when I could've wrote that note like 10 times and put it on 10 other cars and he'd never know?

Its been a few weeks now and I think HE's the one taking this "Valentine" thing too far. Seriously. Did he get a new car? Park blocks away? Taking public transportation now? Is he suspecting everyone at the gym and giving everyone that talks him the evil eye? Does he have a list of suspects? Wow.

He seems a bit touchy. But that only makes me want to push his buttons more....

I should feel bad. I should leave him alone. But it just makes me giggle so much.