Aunty Flow complaints have commenced.

I did not have fun at that activity last night.

Turns out we were supposed to meet at the dorms at 6PM to ride up to the nature trail in Farmington and I didn't get there until 6:30 because I needed food and to get gas. So a bunch of us showed up late and we split up and rode up there to catch up to them. They asked me if I knew where it was, I said yeah and they said they were gonna follow me.

I ended up taking a boy and a girl who have been flirting since they arrived at the dorms. They decided to sit in the back and make me the chauffeur. They asked if I wanted her to sit up front with me, but I'd rather they flirt behind my back so I don't have to pretend I'm listening and/or care. And they sure did. They flirted and giggled the whole way there. He even bought her a present. And she was all giggly about it for awhile. Dear god, shoot me now.

I was stressing while driving. I dunno why. Cuz I was driving, I was annoyed and I was late. I missed the turn like two times and had to do two U turns and the car behind me, they were all like "what the heck". Poor boys. I don't know why but it BUGS me SO bad that I missed the turn. It's not rocket science. I've been there a thousand times. Why?! I was just stressed. I can't get over that. So annoyed with myself.

Then, since we were late, we didn't get any water before we started and we had to 'catch up' to the those already on the trail. So we booked it up the trail and it...well, wasn't level and those kids walk fast. And considering my body was concentrating on bleeding the pain came quickly. I was still stuck on the U turn stuff the first 1/2 the trip. Nobody cared about my stress and even dismissed my apologies. Grr. I never got brave enough to ask that cute kid how old he was either. They were all engaged in conversation and I just spent my time trying to keep up while listening to others.

They had mucho cotton trees. Ugh. Talk about allergies. We were walking so fast we didn't really look around and appreciate it all. There was wind damage all over the place from the storm they had. I got bit by a mosquito. There was cotton and pollen floating everywhere and slowly stopped most of us from breathing and we didn't have water. I didn't have anyone to talk to and nothing to say. I didn't want to listen to those two flirt anymore. Halfway up Eileen asked if I would carry her cell phone in my pocket cuz she didnt have one. I felt like a pack mule. Great, that makes me feel good... Ugh.

We got to the end, or as far as we were going to go, and we rested and the kids played games and I sat at the table where the grown ups were and observed. I didn't want to play strength and stragetic games I never win those. They were doing stick pull and there was like no one my size to play against even if I wanted to. I just wanted to go home and take a shower and hopefully bleed.

We eventually headed back and I went with the first group cuz I knew I'd fall behind. I walked alone. I got to walk slow. I wanted to enjoy the view and the smell. It reminded me of Grandma O's backyard. The smell. The canal next to the woods we played in like Robin Hood and army stuff. Memories. All these couples walked past me. Ya know, for a singles ward, not many of us are single. I tried to remember peoples names. I got to pet a dog. The lady that owned the dog asked why I was a loner behind the group. ha...ha.. story of my life. Thanks for reminding me. That made me feel good.

We finally got back to the cars and I got water finally and a granola bar. It got cold so I put on my jacket. I gave Eileen her cell phone back and located the two flirties still stuck at the hips. We got in the car and I drove them home. I wasn't as stressed going home cuz I knew where that was most definantely, but there was construction that threw me off a bit and I went back to tense and stressed. Grr. They didn't say anything to me on the way down. They tried to include me in their flirting on the way up tho. Oy. Kind of insulting. She pulled out an apple on the way down and they actually shared the apple together in my backseat. I was gonna puke. Most of the conversations were about her traveling and living at different places for a year and going to school at Westminister. She being young and single and exploring. Seems like daddys money has gotten her all over the world. Disgusting.

I dropped them off at their cars and she casually left some money for gas on my console as she left and said thanks for driving. Then the guy doesnt want her to think he's ungrateful or whatever so he digs in his wallet and pulls out his cash before getting out of my car. Just like a cab. They left a pile of money in my backseat. It just feels wrong. It feels like dirty money. I really did feel like the chauffeur then. Its like earning money for the wrong reasons. Ugh. Just add insult to injury. Thats just great...

Yeah....that makes me feel....good.

I finally got to go home where I found a rose placed neatly on the porch. I knew my latest stalker had been there. Apparently he didnt have a flower with him so he plucked one my Grandmothers roses. It makes me mad when ppl pluck her flowers. She loves gardening so much, she's so proud of it, she works so hard.

I left the flower on the porch to die since I couldn't save it and went inside to spend two hours 'winding down' and putting a puzzle together. I finished it at 11:30 and went to take a shower AND then at midnight I started to bleed.