Sit back and watch my world disappear The sirens are on time today. Our emails are getting faker and faker... Everytime I write him I have to think "am I in the mood to be fake?" and it's usually a no... So I don't email him so much anymore... The more I read his emails... and seeing how picky he is how high maintenance he is and his family 'togetherness' I wonder.. why or even how I liked him so much. I was so right when I thought a guy like that would never be with me. I was right when I wrote in my journal several times "Note to self: Dont fall in love with Adam" No one will ever be good enough for him. No one can please a man like that. Ha, I feel stupid because I thought I could be the exception. "You will likely not find that perfect person, and if you did, there would certainly be no interest in you." I keep thinking "the woman that can handle and please that man will be a great woman, I hope they find each other" but then I think... I don't think that woman exists, so why do I wish it for him? Because I care. He wants careers/religion status' that require him to be married within a year. HA. I laughed so hard. Yea, him, a year, married, actually content! No way. "I know you had to go away I died just a little..." "I never will forget That look upon your face As you walked away Without a trace And I understand that You did what you had to do And I thank you, I thank you. Thank you for letting me see who you really are before we got too serious.