Think about it I think I missed the point of the angry-ness I would receive if I met with Dan. Isn't wasn't so much that it was with another boy, but the fact that it was an internet meeting type thing and how dangerous that is. That thought really didnt cross my mind. I could always go and look at the kid, shrug my shoulders and walk away if I wasn't sure. But I guess I trusted it all a lil' too much. But I think thas what would bug him more than anything now that I think about it, not the fact I'd talk with a guy friend. So that whole blow up about jealousy was prolly irrelevant. Sorry to worry you all! Just had to think ..."outloud" on "paper"...heh Welp, I'm here and I'm alive. Nobody attacked me. I'm breathing. We had a nice talk. It was nice to see the person you've been talkin to for like 5 years. He was so nervous, he was shakin and only felt comfortable when there was convo...okay when he was talking...so I let him talk the whole time. I just smiled and nodded. Poor kid. Won't see him again. He's moving to Ogden I believe. You could definately tell he thought I was hot. Time to get outta there. I gave him a time limit of like 45 minutes to talk to me. I enjoyed listenin to his old english talk. But thas about it. Adam didn't text me the whole time I was talkin to Dan. Weird. He was so wrapped up in another piece of drama that I figgered I didnt need to bother him with some more drama. So its all still a secret. ssshhh All day yesterday he was on this "I have something to tell you, but I'm not telling"...He didn't want to tell me to avoid the 'drama thing' I think he feels bad that he brings drama. But by avoiding/ignoring it all...its basically the same thing as creating it so...he might as well tell me. The drama has already started. Oh bother. He's been avoiding me this week b/c he doesnt want to bring up drama, which is dumb, b/c we juss wasting time to be together this last week. But whadeva... He says he'll figger it out himself...Yeah right, he's been draggin it for like 3 days already... Its all good now fer me anyways. My drama is over. I got over it. Mind, body and spirit are doing good now. Mind and spirit aren't fighting anymore so much... so body is handling it a little better. Its hard to stay balanced now knowing in a couple of days everything will be all whack again (as in school and missing the boy). But hey, I'm trying to be normal. I like work. Which is good, it'll help when I miss the boy. I'll stay late just b/c I dont have a life. And I hope that school might be exciting enough to keep my mind off it all... Hope they're fun/interesting classes. Other than that...I can only hope to get thru school faster (haha ya right) so I can go and marry the boy for next fall. hehe! Random funny: So the phone rings... I answer and the first question asked "What did you eat fer lunch darlin?" Uh.... I didnt ..have lunch.. I really don't remember eating anything for lunch. "Oooh you poor dear! We should bring you up some cookies! Do you know who this is hun?" uh.....not really.... "Oohh you poor baby! I'm sorry I'm Diana Stanford...do you rememeber me now?" uh.....yeah...yeah I do.... I really did remember her...she's so hilarious! This older lady talks to ya like yer her grandkid and says 'dear' and 'doll' and stuff up the ying yang. VERY friendly. I think she basically wanted to know if her husband's ex-wife had been served her papers or something. Wants to know how her husbands divorce is going. haha.. interesting. I told her I wasnt the one workin on that particular case and said I'd ask Patsy or something and she's all sympathic "Ohh dear, I dont want to pressure you none, I mean after all you haven't had any lunch...Dear (telling her hubby I suppose), she hasn't had lunch yet! Ralph is just workin her too hard, we should send him back on vacation" Hahahahahahahhahahahahaa Made my day. This office is neverending cold! I'm buying gloves to type in the winter. Keeping my coat here for when I come to work. And prolly investing in a heater. heh I love it! I'm not totally sick of the heat like I usually get really sick of the cold. The heat could stay awhile longer, I'd be fine. I just like winter...just not that long tho.... heh I'm picky about my weather. I like the chills I get in Fall. I love Fall. Okay shutting up and back to work..