Dont Judge Me.

But I found a cat to foster for one night at the animal shelter on Redwood.

I immediately liked the service I was getting. One on one with someone who could answer all my questions and give suggestions that would be best for my situation. Loved it. It was immediately already better than any other shelter I went to. The lady said they save the cats from the euthansia list from other shelters.

Anyways, I asked for an older cat thas good with kids and dogs. She turned my attention to one of the oldest cats and her favorite apparently. Her name is Blink (I dont do names for cats), looks like a black tabby (looks like my first cat I had) she's 12 and just had some dental work done so her fur was all coarse, but she's healing so the fur is getting softer. I liked her b/c she was very affectionate. You pick her up in the shelter and she goes straight for your neck and nuzzles/kisses it. And the fact that you can 'hold' her was amazing to me. All the youngin's claw right out of your hands. I couldn't actually pay attention to any other cat after that. Her darn prejudice for Blink.

So I brought her home and sure enough she sat and stared at the kids while they ran and screamed around her. The dog didn't really acknowledge her presence and she didn't acknowledge his. Max doesn't seem to be interested in any animals at all, just humans. She'd explore the house while meowing and when the kids came she'd be quieter and wander off into some corner so the kids had to find her. I suppose she only meows when she needs/wants something. I went to the store and got soft food and kitty litter stuff. She had decided to make her bed on Coles pillow in his bed. We tried to move her for bedtime, but she kept jumping up in his bed meowing waking him up... so he went to his moms bed and the cat got what she wanted.

The only thing I worry about is her age and health. But that was kind of the point of doing this, taking an old cat and letting it live its last few years and then I can move anywhere. I juss hope it doesnt cost too much to do so. She only has four teeth left after her last dental so I can't imagine much more dental work to be required... She can still eat hard food, but some soft food for mercys sake would be nice I'd think. They didn't mention any blindness or arthritis yet.. I can only imagine her living to at least 15 yrs. We had to shut the dog out of the house in order to keep her in so that would take some training to get her not to go out the doggy door. And I decided that I'd feel more comfortable being the one to train her or be with her even tho that'd be hard being gone 9 hours a day...

Min wasn't so enthused about dealing with a cat in a new environment while trying to pack the house and move within the next month...(she didnt say that before, but now she's overwhelmed) and she seemed to complain about allergies a bit during the evening... so I dont think its working out for Min... and I dont feel right juss...dumping a cat on her like that.

So I thought I'd take it back Friday after work and tell them I'll be back in a month when my sister is gone, I get a house to myself, and I can be/train the cat the best I can. She'll still be there in a month right? Nobody wants old cats right? And if not, its not a tradgey I suppose. I also learned theres a lot of cat proofing to do if I dont want her outside, which I dont in this neighborhood and her age/lack of teeth. So many reasons... I'm not completely attached to the cat yet, but thats the only shelter I'd get a cat from at this point, and thas prolly the only cat I'll think about when I go back.

Its juss never the right time. I feel that its juss not the right time.

Making these decisions all in one day was totally stressing me out and then Evan comes over and grunts and all his sarcastic remarks and insensitivity, only worried about the cat having crazy eyes and complained about its lack of energy, and eats all my chips and then says he's going home to bed. Gee, nice to see you today... and that didn't help. I'm really having a problem with his lack of sensitivity about -anything-.

Its a good feeling tho, to know theres a cat at home waiting for me to come home from work and love it and hug it and hold it, even if its a short lived feeling. :D