Close My Eyes   "And all I see is you Close my eyes Try to sleep I can't forget you Na na na...na na na... I'd do anything for you..." Juss got done doing the Power Point CIL test its like our last CIL test until we have the final. Weee and it was frickin' easy to, even for a dope like me. The big news of the day. My flip flop broke. My favorite flip flops. Not even wearable anymore. Grrrr, made me mad, but sad at the same time. Dereks like, "So you're going to hafta walk around barefoot today huh?" It wasn't even 1st hour yet. I says yup. He said he'd go to my house and get me some shoes during 2nd hour so he'd skip out on weight training. Pff. I said no skipping out on school esp for me, and it didn't matter that much. I really didn't want him to go and disturb my home b/c I didn't know exactly what was going on there at that time. I told him not to go. I said I wouldn't talk to him the rest of the day if he did. He said he was going to go. He took Megans advice "You heard the woman!" and got them. I was mad. He got them. He was mad b/c at first I refused to wear them after he went to the trouble of risking a sluff/getting caught and then dealing with my stupid dog and waking my Mutti up juss so he could get me some shoes. That's kinda why I DIDN'T want him to go in the first place. But did he listen to me? No. So far I haven't spoken to IT. Erm, the boy. He frustrates me. And I bet you lots of money he's prolly asking himself right now, "What'd I do?" b/c he doesn't know the reason I stopped talking to him. It was sad and kinda broke my heart. I came back from Seminary and juss walked past him. He followed and put his arm around me and asked what was wrong. I kept walking. He juss followed me. He wouldn't touch me anymore and I wouldn't talk. I went over to Natalie and Ryker and slowly meandered over to my class. I turned around and waved to the boy and turned into my class. He had that lil' puppy dog face again. Stupid cow. I'm mad at myself b/c it's stupid shoes and I 'should' be thanking him. But I don't appreiciate him disobeying me when I had a slightly good reason that he shouldn't disturb my house and then expect me to thank him profusely after he went to the trouble! Disobeying me is enuff. But saying, "You should be thanking me!" is overboard. I didn't ask him to and I didn't want him to. But I can't thank him and I can't talk to him. I'm so stubborn about stupid things. But it hurts okay!? Sheesh. After school I hafta do like 5 pages of math before Dress Rehearshal today. I think I got my costume all ready. Not looking forward to math tho. I wanna juss lay down and cry myself to sleep b/c I want to take a nap. But once I go to the practice today I promise I'll be a much more enjoyable person to be around. :D I'm excited. But then when I get back, prolly some more math and bedtime. Morrow is Friday tho, short day. Yay. And then....dun dun dun....performing at 7pm! Weeee and then prolly that Skyigra thinga ma jig. Today was a lazy day. I didn't want to get up b/c I was in pain. I like stretched my legs out too much yesterday after skipping practice to be with Kirri. I didn't wanna get up, I didn't wanna put my contacts in, I didn't wanna wear make up and my hair was juss a freak accident. I was even tempted not to get dressed for school, juss go in my PJs! I decided to do my hair like I did in the 8th grade. I used to think it was so cool. I did it again, lil' pony tails all over and then I decided that was boring so I needed to do something to the pony tails, so I curled them. I walked out of the bathroom and Vati -sincerely- says, "You look pretty." It was his serious pretty too. Usually he does this choke on the words, sarcastic pritti. I was shocked. Vati does NOT give compliments. *shrugs* So tired. Take nap. Dread math. Don't wanna talk to the boy. Wanna go to practice. Wanna be happy... I don't feel like talking or smiling anymore.