Random thoughts from Wednesday: I'm listening to Amy Grant. Who the heck is Amy Grant and why am I listening to her? I've noticed all the highs and lows a relationship can give and then the regular everyday life pattern when you dont have a relationship. I'm not saying that either way is more worth it. I'm just sayin there's a difference. We like calm sometimes, but we always put ourselves in a high/low spontaneous situation. Ya know if these elevators ever stopped working I wouldn't ever make it to the top floor for work. I'd just sit in the lobby and call Ralph and tell him I can't get up. We dont have stairs to go up. We can only use the stairs to go down says fireman. Its slightly irking to have Grandma and Renee standing/staring at me while I'm eating breakfast giving me the normal quiz. Where were you? What'd you do? Who were you with? How'd you get home? When did you get home? Ugh. And they wonder why I dont like coming back. I heart them, really, I'm sure they really care, but those questions are..just so fake. So I had two tests today. My take home I was trying to finish at 1am this morning and then a spelling test I was gonna 'review' the words quickly before school today. I spent a lot of time on that test, I work on it a lil at a time and not one lump time space and I missed 7. I always miss 7. 7 isn't such a lucky number for me. I blame the boy. And then the spelling test... I reviewed the wrong words so basically I didnt study for that test and I only miss one. Ugh. But I always fail the lawyer tests they're so tricky. So I think it's funny that the City Center or City Creek has its logo's and everything settled around the quote about the 'rising of the city'. haha I dont know about you but I've only seen Salt Lake City get leveled lately. The KeyBank building was there and I took a trip up to Logan and came back and it was gone. I walked down the block to go to work and all the building were there next to the sidewalk. I was leaving work walking the same sidewalk and the buildings were gone. This city ain't rising none, maybe in crime if you think about Pioneer Park. I'm beginning to not like the Kearns Building. grr. It's old and I'm afraid I'm gonna break it all the time and then when I show up nobody is usually there. Their secretaries disappear so then I end up finding a lawyer who looks annoyed and grudgingly says "I'll sign for it" as if I'm a message girl or something. Shock. I dont need them to sign for anything. I just have something to give, like cheap mail, not a peasant delivery girl. I dont always -want- something when I go to others offices. Ugh. Some respect here people?! I will not marry a businessman. So there. Oooh! Dangit! I met this guy outside my building, I usually see him at court and we exchanged names for once today and I have..no clue what it is anymore.. it was like 10 minutes ago! And I fergot. *sigh* Anyways, when he was talkin to me I could totally tell he's a smoker. Ick. The other night on the way to SLC Loryn said she could tell I was more attached to the boy by the way I ..acted verses what her friends do when they break up. Apparently they cry for like an hour or so and then they're done. But Loryn said she could tell it ment more to me because of the way I acted. I thought about that. I realized I dont normally act that way..for that long..with others. Hmmm... I wonder if it 'ment more' to him as she says it. The first emotion I could communicate in the correct way and it just so happens to be sadness for an end. Sad. Usually such random things are written in my other journal... bah hah!