Yesterday I went to the softball game for the first time this season to see the wards play each other.

I saw a boy sitting by himself at the top of the bleachers so I decided to sit and talk with him.

No one was talking to me from my ward there near the first row of the bleachers, so I wandered up to talk this guy. He was cute and alone. And I knew, by experience, sitting alone sometimes is not enjoyable when no one will talk to you.

I started a conversation and found it surprisingly easy to talk to this guy.

Sometimes guys, if totally shy, make it really hard and awkward to talk to them.

But this guy was pretty easy going. And did I mention cute?

I learned he grew up in the area, his parents house was like a block away from the game, learned he was a duck hunter from his quacking phone...

I enjoyed the chatter and it not being so awkward, all like 5 minutes of it.

Then his parents showed up to watch him play.

He literally turned his back on me and talked to his parents the rest of the game until it was his turn to play.

I mean, I'm assuming those were his parents the way they interacted. It's not like he introduced me or anything or even acknoweledged my presence after that.

So I just want you to know...

I just want the parents to know...

That I tried.

The reason your son isn't married is because he is too interested in talking to his parents than to notice and/or talk to the cute girl next to him.

What kind of guy is more interested in talking to his parents than a cute girl?? Seriously.

Okay, maybe I'm jumping the gun on the whole "cute" factor, but still, a member of the opposite sex is engaging in a conversation with you. Based on his reaction that's a rare thing! Don't let it slip away! Esp don't let it slip away because of your parents! If nothing else, feel awkward/obligated enough to talk to her simply cuz she's the only one sitting next to you way up there on the bleachers! Just because I might be ugly or "not your type" (as all the boys' excuses goes) it doesn't mean you can be mean to me and ignore me!

I don't usually have the courage to approach a stranger, purposely sit next to them, and actually try to have a conversation.

In the world where guys are generally stupid, I just don't do that. They react strangely (as if I asked them to marry me).

Case in point. And I feel like I waste my time.

I can't stop rolling my eyes.

Do they seriously wonder why they aren't married?

A super attractive girl could come sit and try and talk with them and they'd still turn and talk to their parents or their guy friends. They wouldn't know what "attractive" is if it hit them in the face.

Is anyone going to see my attractiveness? In the world of boys, do I even have any? Is anyone going to talk to me for more than 5 minutes to find out my personality, which just might be my attractiveness?

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I stepped out of the house around 9:15pm to go to the softball game.

The temperature was perfect, the sun was setting, and the smell of cig smoke filled my nose.

I know several people that would complain about that scenario very blatantly.

But, it was the most comfortable feeling I've had in a long time.

It brought back memories of the Summer of 2006 in WY. And not entirely bad memories.

It just made me smile to remember. Remembering that feeling. Remember Rich.

It's weird, but it feels like I grew up with ppl smoking around me all my life, my house, my clothes, etc. and then when I moved out on my own I didn't have that anymore, so sometimes when I smell it again it reminds me of home. Cept none of that is true.

I remember people by their laughter and their smells.

It's comforting.

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I finally vacuumed the stairs. That last of my dogs hair.

The last of my dog.

Gone from my house.