Slowly Drifting Away...   I seriously think he's getting sick of me already. It's only been a week. Man, I'm so annoying. Okay, he's either getting sick of me or he really is not feeling good. Or maybe it's both. I'll juss back off and give him some time to himself. I hope he'll tell me if he gets sick of me. I made him promise to do that. Even tho he repeated he'd never get sick of me. I stopped getting rides with him and stuff, juss to let him know I'm like backing off. I kinda pressured him into taking me out on Saturday. He prolly won't feel good and he has Priesthood Session, but he said he'd come pick me up after the session. He wanted me to dress up so he wouldn't look like a dork I suppose. Kinda regretting it. I told him he could juss forget about it, he didn't hafta do it. I mean that's kinda rude to tell someone they're taking you out and paying for it an' all. *shrugs* I feel bad. That would be really sad if he's already sick of me and holding my hand is juss a 'job', something he has to do everyday. *sighs* Sad day. I got in my car to go to Muttis work and passed the side of the school where Derek would pull out. I saw a maroon car stopped and kind of a goldish car behind it and the driver of the gold car was talking to the driver of the marroon car. I didn't notice what happened until we passed and saw that the gold car was basically embedded into the back of this marroon car. I'm beginning to hate marroon cars with a passion and not juss b/c I can't ever spell it right. I thought it was him. I could've swore it was his car. I was worried. I kinda like mentally flipped and Mutti noticed it all, not that she cared. Scott talked to Mutti the whole way to work. He was like dead silent when I drove home. I drove like a maniac, I was thinking too much. I didn't know if I was gonna be able to get ahold of Derek to see if he was okay. I went over to Kirri's to say bye to her before she left and to babysit her siblings while her parents left. After Kirri left nobody else moved so I juss did my math homework on her kitchen table. I announced it was the most homework I've ever done in the past like month and Janet rejoiced for me. Then I went home and watched TV with Scott. He was so cute. He was hungry. I made him noodles. I gave them to him. He wasn't eating them b/c he was watching my show. "Are you gonna eat Scott?" He looks over at me like an annoyed teenager sprawled out on a couch and says with an attitude. "I'm watching ThE Show!" I didn't know a 4 yr old could act like a 14 yr old. haha It was funny. I told him to watch and eat at the same time. I put him to bed....took a shower...and here I am spilling my guts out. The week is slowly getting better as it's ending. So excited for General Conference. Nobody to hang out with this weekend. Except boys...mainly boys that don't have jobs. Like Ryker and Nate. Derek hasta work the rest of the week I believe. *shrugs* Prolly betta for him, he has time to think. I dont think he likes me very much. We need some time I think. So maybe I'll ask Ryker if he wants to hang out. Or steal some money and go ice skating with Nate. :D What to do... I stole some cute outfits from Kirri tho if that counts for my missing her so much. I juss don't know what to after school any more. I should kidnap Ber and we should do something together. It didn't sound like she wanted to hang with me this weekend. Perfectly understandable, but I don't care. :D Well, got some homework done for morrow. Got a cute outfit. Still got a boy to look forward to in the morning. Still got Ber in second hour to entertain me. Have nothing to do after school morrow. Entertain myself in some way. Sounds like a great day morrow. I miss my Kirri and Megan and Natalie and Kacean soo mucchh.... you have no idea.