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As far as the holidays go for single people...

I find it annoying that Levi still, to this day, makes some type "im so lonely, poor me" comment every holiday. He also seems irritable during such times with family, ya know, all he's got right now. But while it is annoying that he does such, I also totally understand his level of thinking.

His latest comment at New Years was the fact that the hugs Sara were giving were the only hugs/contact he's had outside of his family. His sister commented that she'd give him hugs and he continued to say its just not the same when its family. Although I find it stupid that he'd dismiss his sisters attempts to help so quickly, he does have a point. There's some things that families just cant do to help you sometimes.

It frustrates me to think that he's totally squandering what he does have now, that he'll never be 'happy' or content until he gets a wife and prolly kids, that he cant enjoy the moment NOW with WHO he's with. His family isn't going to be around forever, and when the wife and kids come, you might not ever get that time with yer siblings back.

Like I said, I totally understand where he's coming from. Yeah, single here too. But I don't wallow in self pity every holiday...completely. I appear happy and chipper and spend time with my family and not dismiss any love they give me in return. I enjoy the time now, cuz I know it wont last forever. I know its lonely at times, but I'm sure I'll be so crowded with ppl/kids in the future that I'm gonna miss the times I was alone.

I had a dream that Levi finally snapped with all this self pity and decided to make a statement of some kind ...with a gun to his head. All his family stood below and watched him up on the roof, there was nothing they could do. Somehow I got involved and I simply came in and climbed up a ladder and went to him. It wasn't cuz he had a crush on me before, or that I was cute or whatever, but I was someone he knew cared and most importantly I wasn't part of his family. I simply gave him a hug. It turns out in the dream that that is all he wanted, a hug, and some times family just doesn't cut it. Of course that doesn't fix his depression issues and they hauled him off to get help.

A family watched helplessly as their depressed sibling/son expressed his need for companionship. They knowing it wasn't the end of the world, he still had time to find her. But he doesn't know that for sure. All this because this boy doesn't know how to have the self confidence to live on his own or with family. And the sad thought that he'd even one day settle with two lonely ppl who spend time together just to cure their loneliness when there is no love to be had.

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