Went to FHE this Monday.

I'm not sure why.

It was a physical activity.

This ward does a lot of physical activities, esp in the summer.

Hence, they don't get a lot of participation.

But there I was.

Running around in barefeet in the grass playing a version of "capture the flag".

Then I remember why I dont show up to those activities.

The pain was almost immediate.

This much fat has never been on my body before and certainly has not moved this much in years.

I think it hurt the bones cuz all the fat was moving so violently hanging on the bones.

And then the boys are so competitive they literally plow you over.

One kid stepped on my foot and then plowed into me.

It did not work very well, for my foot at least.

And its my bad foot, the bad big toe that is already having weird infection issues that I wont go see a doctor for, which is now turning colors again.

Then theres the issue of my face after physical activitiy also.

Even if I survived the plowing, stepping on, and fat jiggling all over, the permanent red face does not help me out.

But it made me feel better when I saw another girl with an almost purple face. I'm not the only one.

I was surprised tho when I took off running for the prison and someone yelled look out for her, and he called me by my name, and I think it was Mike that said it. I was totally surprised and caught off guard that he knows my name. I feel like I'm in high school again. The popular guy knows my name.

Anyways, it wasn't really that bad. But I'm not sure I'd do it again. I kind of like the feeling of that stretched pain the next day, makes ya think you actually did something useful the day before and you have proof.

At least its not my back. I can still bend over. But the inside of my thighs are like screaming and oddly those muscles are the only thing it seems that lifts my legs up and down. And my love handles it seems jiggled so much they are in pain, but at least it leaves me sitting up straight most of the time to relieve pain. I'm not sure any of this pain is muscles, I'm sure its all fat that just got jiggled way too violently for like an hour. And then I walk all funny cuz my toe is a different color and can't grip flip flops.

Anyways, I decided not to go and attempt softball the next day...