So I'm noticing this pattern. When I actually verbally, type or write down that I miss the boy.... Usually that same day I'll find some hot boy to flirt with and my 'missing him' feeling disappears just as quick as it came. Also, I was reading an email he sent him kinda explaining the family traditions they are doing for Thanksgiving, and ya know, I'm thinkin I'm glad I didn't get in on that family style. haha! Just a lil'...too involved... Anyways...so this morning I thought about writing him an email saying I missed him. And of course, some hot boy had to come around and change my mind. My bike had flats so I ended up running to the library to do some service hours before work. (I decided to do service hours to 'distract' me and possibly make friends) I finished around noon and saw the bus there waiting on 10th North, so I kinda ran down to the bus to ask if he goes on 900 West or if he turns before then, and guess who is driving?! Mmmk, story: Like 6 months ago, I swear, there was a cute boy that was just a one or two day replacement for one of the 519 bus drivers. I had gotten on his bus to go home one day and then the next day I decided to walk past his bus and go to Subway for dinner. He saw me skip his bus and he even like postponed leaving to motion to me to come back to his bus... He was totally like 'come talk to me'. Anyways... I was interested. But he changed routes/buses and I never saw him again. Okay I saw him like once more after that, he was driving Trax and he asked for my number, and it was like the one time I had a boyfriend this year. Suck. And so...that flopped, but I found him again! So of course I soo totally flirted with the guy. He said he didn't like the Trax schedule and came back to bus 519 b/c he thought I'd be there, but I changed to taking bus 520 now. hah! Hilarious! I laughed at him when he said that and he called me a menace, but said it was okay for me to laught at him b/c I was cute and then he went on to explain my beautiful smile and it wasn't....as cheesy as it sounds. His face went all red and he did the dig-yer-feet-into-the-ground thing. It was cute. He asked if I was still living in the apartments...hah..I said yes... I dont want him to know where I live! He asked what I was doing for the Holiday and I said..."eating at Grandmas" He said he didn't have any plans yet. haha I got the hint, but I wasn't gonna do anything about it! I wonder what his options are... We wouldn't give each other our names b/c we're..dumb? I dunno. I wanted his info and he wouldn't give it til I gave mine. That didn't happen. He said he waited like 6 months to see me again, he can wait another 6 months to get my name. heh! He said he was planning on moving to California and he basically said he would take me with him, he attempted it in a subtle way. He had to drive the bus after awhile and asked if I wanted a ride. yay for public transportation. He asked about my job and school. So he should know my religion now, and I dont know his. He seemed...shocked when I told him I was gonna be basically a paralegal. It was like I told him I was gonna be a cop or something. "catch the bad guys" *shrugs* (I'd get paid better in Cali also) heh Some girls were running to the bus stop and he motioned with his finger for them to come to him instead of the bus stop and get on. Deja vu! It was hot. Anyways... I think both of us will have a really good day today. I got off at 800 North (he prolly thought I'd walk straight down 800 to the apartments, little does he know I live on 800 North). I asked where he was gonna drop me off and he said "6th North.. unless you wanna...stay on the rest of the way..." I SO should've!!! Needless to say I dont have the "miss you" feeling anymore. I can do my favorite thing now, flirt endlessly! mwhahaha I'm like extremely happy now. I have like self-confidence up the ying yang. I also think that running/exercise really helps my mind not slip into depression or bad thoughts. Cept for entertaining this thought about this guy....*drools* Well, I neglected to mention... We gave our ages... I said 19 and he said he was almost twice my age, He is 37. Yeah, I know. What is wrong with me? Gimme someone older than 25 and I'm all over them. Gimme someone more my age and I'm bored to death and not really interested. Gosh I noticed it was the same body type and everything too, like 5'8 with dark hair and eyes and perfect white teeth. I could even tell that it would be easy to embarrass him (like I did Rich) which I love to do to older guys! Why do I always go for the same body type all the time, they end up being WAY older than me. And that was like 5 pages I wrote on this guy. Seriously tho, whats the difference in meeting/going on a date with someone from the internet that is 'normal' (you stongly believe) and going on a date with a tangible, hot stranger in front of you? If I wanna date, I'm gonna hafta date complete strangers, cuz I ain't dating the ..lovely boys at my school. Major bummers: I, personally, inch away from the 40+ married old men flirting with me, and he is dangerously close to that line.... gaahhh... AND I think he smokes. Turn off. I shouldn't assume. AND he is from Mexico. I wonder if I'll see him again.... We seem to have trouble with that... How could someone that beautiful who looks so young be that old and come from a place I despise so much...