Something is wrong with me. How long will it take to straighten me out? Do I even try? A whole new year. Where I say I can start over. Be the person I -really- want to be. This is where I repeat everything I've said the past three years or more. All those words that enlighten, lift, encourage and give hope. Just to have them shattered within the year. Again. I don't believe even myself anymore. This'll be the year it changes. Pff! Yeah....right.... I can't grasp the concept of this is who I am and all I'll ever be. As far as a career and education - I know this is as far as I get. But as a person with confidence, self-control, financial stability, etc. I kinda refuse to believe this is the end. There's gotta be something or someone out there that gives me the courage and help to change. To be better. To be a better person. To excel, to continue, to..progress in a positive and healthy way... There's gotta be something....