Listening to: Backstreet Boys - Just Want You To Know
Feeling: unimportant
Drama Land
Dear Office....
"my locker partner sucks and lost the com before she gave it to me, can i get a new copy? She seemed to have lost that BRIGHT PINK PAPER some how!"
I made the boy come over and visit me early today b/c I was going with Natalie shopping. I turned on some music...it had Whiskey Lullaby and Little Moments on it and I played 'em and made him kinda dance with me in the front room after we cleaned up the floor so it was possible. It was SO HOT, I had the stupid recording from the new Backstreet Boys song Incomplete and he knew all the words to the song and juss basically sang it all to me! I love boys that sing...but it ...was him...and I was looking down at him...and running my hands thru his hair...it was definately a kodak moment. So hot. *drools* He's mine. All mine! Note to self..again: I am the girlfriend of a SEX GOD. Mariah brought her Backstreet Boy CD and I took and ripped it. Now I have the whole CD! Weeee! It's so hot when he sings it....with his red hair and blue eyes and looking up at me. *sighs dreamily* Dear God don't take these moments away from me.
Anyways....for this Friday sleepover thing at Beaver...I asked me Mutti if the boy could come up on Friday..she said yeah. Then I asked if he could sleep up there. She says, "Yeah, Derek can sleepover." Think about it for a sec. Think about it. How many mothers would say that? I didn't really wanna hear that at the time b/c I was thinking of how awkward it would be...being as it's my WARD as in church group that we'd be having this lil' sleepover with...and that my bishopbric will be up there and after some of the things I've told them...I dunno. He's always come on outings with ME but I've never been on one with HIM! Yeah, but I'm going to make him take me up there later Friday night...and then we can figure out sleeping arrangements while we're up there and then come home on Saturday. He don't have to work Friday. Miracles of miracles. Maybe now he'll stop having this affair with his work and his boss. Grr. Another story for another time kids. But the moral of that story ish, at least defend yerself if someone accuses you of having an affair! I'm going to make him take me around town Friday afternoon also...so I can get my schedule fer next week also..teehee! And maybe some more shopping. Life is so complicated when shopping ish invovled. I hate it with a passion.
Anyways....A lil' drama in the Wednesday World right now. Yeah, a lil' stress. Aubree called to congratulate me fer making it into the show. As if it was a miracle. That lil' ..I mean...she's so sweet, what a good sport she is. I'm juss excited to be in the show tho. It'll be fun. Anyways...back to stress ball land...I don't know if I can handle two jobs right now. I don't know how often catering would call me. I don't know which job I'll be more happier in. Nobody'll tell me what to do either. Grr. I want to apply at Feng Shui and if I want that job I have to apply and get it in quick. Even then I don't know if I'll get the job. As much as I like catering...... I want a job thas closer b/c of our stupid car situation and I want a set schedule! I don't know what I'm capable of doing and what I'm allowed to do! Gah.
And I can't find my skater shoes in my size. They stop at 4 1/2 b/c they are in the kids section. Grr. So if I want skater shoes I have to go to the boys section or something and I want black ones! Gaah! I want cute, black, skater boy shoes from the kids section that fit me! Mommy, I want smaller feet now! I'm making Dallan come and take me shoe shopping.
I got my debit card now! I juss to get a password. I'm debating on what the pass should be tho. I think it should be a lil' bit of.. her..and a lil' bit of ..him. Hehe...I've got an idea. I wonder if it's a good idea to have it deal with the boy b/c in a couple of years if he's like...gone and out of my life....I'll still be pushing numbers that have to do with him. That'll make me feel good. lol *shrugs*
And I got Minnies book that she wanted fer her BDay. Now all I'm waiting fer in the mail ish my Senior Pics.
Hmmmm....tell me!
Which job do I like better?
Which one do I take?
Two jobs, theatre AND school. Yes? No?
APPLY.
if you get the job, put your two weeks in at catering, work the two jobs for two weeks, then quit catering and work at Feng Shui.
it's the best solution.
because i said so.