Lame Excitement "I hope you're happy You really deserve it This will be best for both of us in the end But the taste of your lips still lingers on my lips.." Soo... my excitement for the week stems from...not from my vacation mind you...but from a flat monitor for 20 bucks for my computer at work. WWEEEEE... I have so much more room on my desk now AND I can actually see, I dont have to squint! I can see my screen. I'm so excited, you have no idea. I have to call like 3 people and just tell them aboot it. I know, it's lame. But still...When you live in a ghetto and you get a flat screen, cheap or not, you feel special. It's funny b/c the secretary who works in this suite with me convinced her boss that she needed a flat screen monitor so he went and spent $300 on hers and ever since she's been trying to get my boss to get me one too, b/c she was in the same situation too. But Ralph would never buy me one, esp if it was bigger/better than his. Now she finds a flat on sale and comes to get me, she's got a plan! Get the monitor now while they're still there and then make Ralph pay for it! But I dunno...for something like that for that cheap... I think -I'LL- pay for it and take it with me when I leave this place! heh I dunno what to do... Pay for it myself and keep it...or make him pay for it and then use it just in the office. Either way it's in the office with me...now whether or not I take it with me when I leave tho... hehe I'm poor, but sheesh, this is a good deal! Random insert: I only put it in b/c it irks/bugs me. On my 'vacation' I got a text at like 6:30am from Matthew Stanley (My most recent "ex", we seriously weren't even together he only thought we were) prolly just getting off work. He gave me a song lyric and attempted to call it 'random. "I told myself I would forget about you. But I keep remembering you beside me." just a random thought." I ingored it and hoped...it'd just go away.. Ever since he texted me I texted Adam like 10x more which isnt good b/c he was at work. DUDE I just totally didn't notice the rest of the text, I was too busy ingoring it. But I juss found this part of it "How are you? had an odd feeling to txt you" with his stupid signature of *i walk alone* Ugh. All this means obviously that he's STILL not over me. I hope I dont see him at school. Besides the computer excitement my recent happy blip was last night. I got home yesterday and the boy was sent down like past Provo on a job so he wouldn't come home til late. Bummer. I was still feeling sick so I like slept most of the night. He texted around 8 saying he was finally coming back. He thought I didnt wanna go and do his family thing on Saturday so he wanted to see me that night, but it would be really late til he got home so I said he couldn't see me. He came anyway! Surprise. My first... surprise from Mr. Perfectionist! So happy! I had this random thought of "I would be so happy if he just once..just once... went out of his schedule and did something unexpected for me." And here he was at my house at like 10pm! heh I seriously was in shock for a bit. I didn't know how to react or what to say. man oh man. "I kiss the sunlight so when you feel it's warmth on your face you'll know that I love you.."