When he first told me he was going to take the kids on the cruise anyway, that he bought the tickets already.

For a split second my thoughts were wait, he really is going to go without me? without me?

Then that quickly changed to sadness for the children, are the children going to be okay?

But somehow, it all started to make him look hot, more desirable.

Here he was taking initiative and not begging me anymore, but telling me.

Here he was stepping up in the parent department and being brave.

This newfound independence made him seem so much more desirable.

Still, those reasons he became independent are not really good reasons...but still!

I mean, he still has the obsession of going on vacation all the time, but will take the kids just to give more reason to go... but at least he stepped up and said he'd go with them alone.

Again, after spending so much time and energy getting him to do something on his own without the world ending, he has finally done it. Well, at least made one step...

And here I am left to think, Wait a minute, what about me? What am I gonna do? How am I supposed to feel?

He really does some dramatic things when HIS world is ending. He checks his life insurance policy. *raises eyebrows*, he checks his credit report, he booked the tickets for just himself and kids, totally cut his parents out of the deal, paid like $4,000 toward his car payment to pay it off, goes car hunting for his Dodge Avenger that he plans on buying in the next month or two. (He's only buying a brand new car for good gas mileage so he can drive his kids to the cruise)