I cleaned my room yesterday. I even did my like yearly cleaning of my bed sheets. eww.... I looked at all the receipts I've saved from this whole summer and wrote 'em all down so I can add them up later.... that'll be amazing. Then I went to mow the lawn, but behold, there was no lawn mower. So I had to go to Renees and push the lawn mower back home. On a scale of 1 to 10 - how ghetto is it to push a lawn mower home from another part of town? I mowed the lawn. The hispanic boys across the street stared at me. They came up to the driveway to ask if I needed help. I didn't see them and kinda backed away as if I were scared when they approached. They went back across the street. But I felt bad for being totally repellent of them and went over and sat on their porch with them afterwards while eating a creamie. The one in the middle was the translator for the others that didn't know English. One boy wanted to say sorry for scaring me, he seemed the youngest but the most sincere. They asked how old I was after offering me a beer. Veinte. I left when LaDonna came to the house. LaDonna said that one of her sons secretary died this morning at age 46. Sadness. She was the secretary of like 4 men. Deanie mentioned how the boys didn't know what to do now that she's gone. Nobody knows how to do her job. I want to leave an impression like that. I want to be that needed and important to males so when I leave it'll leave them thinkin' "What will I do without her?". Yeah, that's right. Then maybe they will see just how much I did for them and maybe appreciate me more even tho I'm dead! I think I'm jealous of LaDonna and all her travels. Not just the fact that she's done more traveling than I have in a lifetime, but the fact that she has the money to do so! Not only her but her whole family! Jenna's traveled more than I have and we're the same age! I want to go with her. Esp when she can go to Portland, OR. Sigh. Why wasn't being rich my mothers goal in life? I think now that I've expressed my desire for Fall that I'll be jinxed and the seasons will just skip Fall again and go straight to winter again. :(