Happy New Year, or as I said in all my texts at midnight, Happy New Rears! With a picture of cartoon drawn babies all with naked butts. The other picture was of underwear, "New Year, New Underwear!"

And well, like almost every year it was a slightly boring celebration, if you can call it a celebration. I debated on spending it with Natalie and Sara and with the anxiety I had driving up to the Valley and the irritation I had because of my period, I didn't know if I could tolerate such a celebration with just us three. Arthur had to work so it would be just us girls. But Natalie called and said she was going to Mr. Walls house to celebrate. I thought that would be a better combination then just me and her and I haven't seen the Walls in awhile so I decided to invite myself along. It was either that or being alone at the house, literally alone. It wouldn't be such a big deal if I did stay home alone, just wouldn't help my pity party.

So I finally found my car buried in frozen snow and lost a few fingers for awhile, went to the store to get more chocolate chips for Natalie since she burnt her last bag in the microwave and headed out to her house. She wanted to make Muddie Buddies for the occasion and her being prego and the kitchen = not a good combo. I swear she's burned or ruined soo much stuff just in the past 4 days I've been in the valley. But then we piled in the car and went to the Walls around 7 or 7:30pm.

I had also brought her a box load of bread items which she decided to pawn off onto the Wall family. I guess she didn't appreciate the efforts of my father attempting to get rid of a whole truck load of bread items with recent expiration dates that he got from the "food factory". I left a giant cake for them also, turns out they dont like cake.

I had a cute purple sweater like thing and jeans with my boots. I'm glad it was short sleeved cuz once my body decided to bleed like 2 hours before the new year all the blood just rushed to my head and my rosy cheeks looked like they exploded and I got so hot. Anyway, we exchanged hugs, Sara and I kinda stood by each other and Mum grabs Natalie and asks "Now remind me of her name" and points in our general direction. Natalie says "Sara", Mums like "Oh I know that one, but the little one, your daughters name" and Natalie repeats, "Sara". "oooohhh" .giggle.

We went upstairs and sat on the couch and kinda stared at each other and talked a bit. They had their dog out and I got to hold him for a bit, but then they put him away. I think it would've been funner if I could've played with the dog. *sniffles*

Then someone made it all awkward and decided trying to think of things to talk about was painful....so Natalie suggested playing a game. *crickets* So she got up and went over to look at their games and she picked a few for us to choose and ...no one chose, so she picked Taboo. She turned on a movie, Curious George, for Sara to watch while we played and half the players got sucked into watching the movie....while Sara ran around causing troubles. So Natalie did her best to keep the game going and forcing others to participate. She got tired and sore of all the running around so she appointed me doer of many things. By then I had the energy and confidence to do so, so we continued to play with technically 6 players, but only 4 paying attention.

Man was that awkward. When the players were so obviously entrenched in doing something else and openly complaining about having to play the game. It was like everyone was staring at their watches wishing the new year would come sooner. I was all for quitting the game and actually sitting around to watch a movie, but Natalie insisted on gaming. We finally quit the game just in time cuz my body decided to start bleeding and my cramps decided to take over my body. They started to play Ninja Burger and I declined playing and Mum went to bed so it was only four of them playing, which landed me the babysitting job. Story of my life.

They played for like two hours and through the new year as I tried to get Sara to fall asleep or simply stop pushing buttons playing with the Walls non-kid-proof house. By then she was really tired and ornery. It was the new year I was stuck on the rocking chair watching Incredibles almost on mute all by myself constantly watching for Sara and surprised by my patience and apathy about the situation. They didn't do anything to celebrate the new year. Someone said it was midnight and everyone said with monotone voices, "oh, uh, happy new year". They didn't even turn on the TV to see what NYC was up to. Boring. They continued to play.

Their game finally ended and we left around 1am. I was carrying Sara out to the car when I slipped on the downhill and I took a knee so Sara wouldn't get hurt or white washed. I just didnt want Natalie to slip, glad it was me, my knee is all bruised tho. We got to her house and switched roles, she took Sara and I got the rest of the stuff. Then I was going to leave her house and Natalie went to get my giant tin of popcorn I left in her house and dropped it all over the porch. I have a lil popcorn left.... It was just a weird night.

I was glad to get home and eat some warm Mac&Tomatoe and veg on the couch til Mum got home at 3am. Then we both wandered off to bed.

"Falling into memories of you, the things we used to do"

In general just another New Year where I sit at the table drinking mah beer and thinkin just another holiday where I never got laid. The same thing I did last year, and the year before that. Dont judge me. You are human and get lonely too.