Let it Shine MMk so theres like 5 people that say hi to me, using my name and I have no clue who they are or what their names are. Irking. Its not a question of how do they know my name...its more of a why. I sit with them in class, yes, but I dont know their name! I dont know their names because, well frankly, I dont really care. But the guy (a regular) at the bus stop is really annoying me. At the end of every sentence he feels the need to say my name. Doesn't help the fact that he's a russian. I knew I despised him on a deeper level than his looks. I'm all sorts of racist kids. I'm sure he has a normal name and that he's told me before... I just cant remember. I'm good at surpressing such things. I wonder if he gets that empty feeling, like somethings missing when we dont text goodnight, or if it's just me. You know what sucks? That whatever grade I earn in my Personal Finance class, is what I'm going to be branded with it forever. I guess I'm only saying this because it'll be a bad grade, but hopefully it'll be passing. Everyone will brand me with this lack of knowledge forever and the sad part is, that it's true. Kinda know the pressure Adam deals with. I wonder what kind of arguments bf/gf or married couples have with people that arent stubborn, are they like my mine anyway? If I had ring tones, they'd all be Christmas songs. As much credibility has the homeless have...one stopped me and said I had the best smile he's seen all day. For some reason I'm all smily. I came to work and asked Patsy ridiculous questions and laughed the whole time. She's hilarious. I feel like I'm trying to hide my smile, but I can't. I just realized the kid next to me in one my classes has a really annoying personality. Glad he's getting married. I wonder what she's like to be able to handle him. 10:30am I feel sick! A) I just realized the kid in this class on the front row - his name is Matthew B) The girl next to him - I havent seen before til now - and apparently fondling her hands and knee - is his girlfriend C) Her name is Sara also D) Matt & Sara are dating. ICK! Kill me now. A fear: To want something and not be ready for it. I got a 500 page leisure book instead of reading my textbooks and I've read like half of it already in like two days. I didn't do a lick of homework. I can't believe I read that much that fast and that the book could be so intriguing! Honestly nothing has caught my attention this quickly except for...well.. a boy. I've been here before a few times And I'm quite aware we're dying. My head is made up of memories Most of them useless delusions This room is bored of rehearsal And sick of the boundaries I miss you so much