Thanksgiving was brief, but good. Black Friday shopping, napping and church, it was all great!
Until I got food poisioning that night I went home.
Lack of sleep that night, going to work that day, puking twice at work, and missing the Polar Express Train ride I paid lots of money to go do with family. I knew it was only a 24 hr thing, but that was the 24 hrs I wanted to actually participate in life. The rest of the week I can totally check out. But noooo... It's never convenient like that.
I thought I was gonna die. Okay, I didn't. But it felt like it at times. And I did find it refreshing to experience a different kind of sickness/pain. I'm so used to sinus infections and I know I can't last long with those without screaming and gnashing of teeth. But this was different... and not as long lasting. I found myself grateful this pain didn't effect my nose and head this time.
But I hate puking. I can tell you the exact year and month of the last few times I've thrown up. I remember it all. What I really can't handle is the nausea which tends to accompany flu and food poisoning situations, but puking is a close second.
My roommate always has a hissy fit when I tell her I was sick and went to work. She uses any excuse she can to get out of doing, well anything really, sickness being one of the few legit excuses to use. She doesn't understand why I don't use excuses to get out of duties and obligations. *shrug* Besides the fact I was raised in a family of hard work. ("The cows and horses don't care if you are sick") it kind of felt better when I puked afterward. Just be doing the same thing at home as I was in the office. Maybe at the office I might get something done in between. And I did skip the train ride I really wanted to go to.
Besides if I'm really sick I sleep and sleep and sleep. She sits on the couch and watches TV like usual, so you can never really tell if she's sick or not. But going home to sleep when your stomach is indecisive on when it wants to eject stuff has never really turned out well for me.
Still afraid of food... but that's okay. Stomach still a little sensitive. I'll only eat what I'm willing to throw up, which isn't much. Maybe I'll get a little skinnier. Maybe I can keep my stomach/appetite smaller, healthier. One step at a time. I've graduated to bread now. woohoo. Actually, my body hurts all over. It's amazing the muscles it takes when you are wretching. Muscles you never knew you had/needed to pay homeage to the porcelain god. Scared to take any pain killer tho.
Just a small blip in the grand scheme of things. Life temporary on hold for 24 hrs. No big deal. Time to move on.
Well, I survived!
Just had to hold on.
"The message of this moment is so clear
And as certain as the rising of the sun
When your world is filled with darkness, doubt or fear
Just hold on, hold on
The light will come
Everyone who’s ever tried and failed
Stands much taller when the victory’s won
And those who’ve been in darkness for awhile
Kneel much longer when
The light has come
It’s a message everyone of us must learn
That the answers never come without a fight
And when it seems you’ve struggled far too long
Just hold on, hold on
There will be light
Hold on, hold on, the light will come
Hold on, hold on, the light will come
If you feel trapped inside a never ending night
If you’ve forgotten how it feels to feel the light
If you’re half crazy thinking you’re the only one
Who’s afraid the light will never really come
Just hold on, hold on the light will come
The message of this moment is so clear
And as certain as the rising of the sun
When your world is filled with darkness, doubt or fear
Just hold on, hold on the light will come"
-Michael McLean : "Hold On, The Light will Come"
Going to see The Forgotten Carols this Saturday starring Michael McLean. Juss revisiting my favorite song of his.
I totally want to spend my holiday bonus on season tickets to the theatre for next year! I won't spend that much money to get a gym membership even tho I've been going for like two plus years, but for the theatre, sure! Merry Christmas to me!