GAH I hate this school. Nothing more needs to be said on that. This is NOT a good day to talk to Wednesday. I get annoyed at every little thing. It all just pisses me off. An especially bad Monday. School. Work. Library. Bed. Ya know, I totally forgot to eat today. I ate a lil' breakfast and then didn't eat like like 12 hours later at night before bed. Jordan was like the only one that spoke to me today. I realized then the desperate measures I was taking for change. The stupid things I have been doing b/c I'm so desperate for change: -Forgetting to eat -Stressing myself to the max so I can go on vacation -Being wishy washy about vacation -Thinking of dropping that stupid class just for vacation -procrastination -Jail Bait Incident -never feeling the homework I did that day was enough -freaking out about grades -freaking out about finals week and how to get out of here -freaking out about the week before finals week (I think its more stressful than Finals week) -thinking about leaving this stupid college forever -fearing the chance of having to stay for an extra semester -contemplating suicide Just get me out of here...at least for a lil' while, a week or two and I'll be fine. Its like that Wyoming feeling all over again. How serious am I about leaving this place? Is it going to destroy me? Am I juss gonna threaten to leave the whole time and never do until its over like Wyoming? I tend to do that. I know I'm strong enough to go through crap like that..this... but sometimes it's just..nice not to be ..strong.