Everyone is asking what I'm doing for New Years.

Everyone is inviting me to do stuff with them on New Years.

And I don't want to do any of it.

Which begs the question of what do I want to do?

The idea of being single and going to your parents house seems lame.

Esp when one parent is working and the other goes to bed at 10pm.

My sis and her family will be there which leaves the aftermath of tired screaming children the next day.

I'm not sure why they don't do New Years at their house with just them? Its not like ppl are going to be around at home.

Other than that I'm left with being a fifth wheel at couples game night while screaming children run around the house and interrupt the game. Yaaayyy....

I love Natalie and Shelly and Min and their children.... but...

I'd rather be actually physically alone than feel alone in a room full of people this year.

Is that weird? Do I just hate ppl now? I've hung out with these guys at other times and done other activities with them, what is so special about New Years that I don't want to hang out with them and their children?

It's really nice that everyone tries to include me in their plans even if they are specifically "couple" plans, but they call it "friends night" and insist I should come...

But it's just not... that exciting to me. I suppose I'm too selfish to share my time on the New Year.

But in my defense Arthur doesn't want to go either.

And again, it leaves the question of what do I want to do.

What would I do if I didn't join married couples and their children?

Nothing. Like usual.

Is that better? My mind answers me immediately and says yes.

Then the ex just texted and made an offer to hang out on New Years.

It seems like such a regression from all the progess I've made in getting away from him.

But honestly, his offer sounds the best so far.

Besides me sitting at home alone with a bottle of sparkling apple cider again this year.

I dont even think the Ward is doing the same old ice skating thing they did last year. At least I haven't heard anything about it.

I could make some effort and invite some ppl over to my house, but the courage to invite ppl I barely know and the effort just aren't in the relaxing category I'm looking for...